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| Tuesday, February 24, 2009 |
which includes pop dance,singing,and instruments. it was predicted that dec 2012 will be the end of the world...but,who knows? anyway,i realised my eyesight is failing... i'm thinking whether to wear spectacles only when really needed...during recess or other times,maybe i can stop wearing spectacles and let my eyes rest. poor them.they have been with me for 15 years(including the time when i'm in my mum's womb)..... i must say,of all my body parts,i love my eyes the most. 'cause i feel that my eyes are unique and big...just like a frog(that's what rina often syas) but i still think that my eyes are very beautiful...(okay,i'm exaggerating. sorry) eyes. you can tell a person's character just by looking at the eyes. 'cause no people have the same type of eyes....for one,i have eyes,that's not black. they're reddish-brown,if you look carefully..... and that's another reason why i like my eyes. from rina's eyes: i can tell---she's kind,mature,sensible,and have a "sunny" character and is often happy,and she's simply gorgeous! halleluyah! (okay,i'm being way hyper-tonic today)... btw...i tried getting rid of my emo character by talking to guys...but i gave up. it's gonna be weird if a girl talks to a guy for nothing. but i tried to shout and scream as much as i can,for the past 2 mths and tried to be like a tom-boy for i could. just to get rid of my emo personality. but i gave up. i think my original emo character is still the best. once and for all. and now,i don't think i need to change myself,just for another person. i shall be me. but... me... i'm emo--->tried to be an extrovert and acted like 1 for past 2 mths... now--->how can i revert back to my old self when i'v gotten used to my new self... changing myself is 1 thing. reverting back to old self is yet,another thing. i want to revert to my emo self,but yet i find it difficult now.. so im trapped in between... now,this is my character. tan zhi tng: -likes to smile and laugh -easily amused -flirt a bit with the right ppl(this is what a survey said) -often found smiling to herself like a maniac(often 'cause she's recalling smth funny) -likes to mix around with right ppl -in her opinion,right ppl means ppl like funny and humorous ppl.. e.g jynlem,rina,jialin,darren,xinyi,gregory,lynn.... (all the funny funny ppl) (the last 2,i seldom talk with,bt they're funny nonetheless) -tzt admires ALL ppl with musical background. -if you know her more,she's warm hearted. -likes to sing,instruments,interested in pop dance -has attitude problems -mood changes like the wind(can cry and the next sec,laugh) -speaks whatever she thinks of,whether gd or bad,hurting or non-hurting -mischievous,immature,irresponsible, -arrogant,has a certain amt of pride,but yet,low self-esteem,timid -emotional,sometimes when you find her on the wrong day,she might just scream @ you or just cry in your face. all in all,i have up to a dozen attitude problems.and the weird thing is,i know them all. and the biggest 1 is,I"M LAME!.... :') ok..i have my angel side too...i'll treat ppl nice if you treat me nice. wonder if i shld apologise to darren toh.... i ignored him when he sayed goodbye to me...but well,won't be seeing him tmr... so...let it go then. but i shall treat him nicer since he's always the one treating me nice. i shall treat him nicer for once. :') *heart of compassion* 你们别歧视我。。。 对于你，没什么，只是遗憾。 |
| I LOVE RAINBOW-ee ♥ 5:24 AM |
| Monday, February 23, 2009 |
anyway,i was thinking about the next batch of committee...i can even guess who they are already.. SL for tanbo should be rina...'cause charis have another even more IMPT post.... i guess only... but SL should be rina.... hehe... but if she be SL,she will have to go and conduct 2010 sec 1 orientation/and other stuffs... then i won't have time to practise with her....and i'll be alone with juniors... argh!!!.... but if she doesn't be the SL,who will it be.... it's not going to be me,'cause i'm not responsible enough...and i'm not mature enough too... even now,as im thinking of the idea,irks me. yeah? it's not going to be me. plus,i'm very very weird. and have a bit of attitude problem. anyways.... i have to be independent when rina be the SL....yeah,i'm improving,aren't i? for erhu,it was fun looking @ mr ng torturing the erhus... but i guess if it were me over there,i wouldn't like it too...but that's me. i'm an extreme SADIST. dizi...well....not bad,but the solo was ruined... the soloist went really green-red when mr ng scolded him,and the more i stared at him,the more that i find he's turning redder....but i know he won't cry just like i did(rina knows) but that's worse isn't it..he's not crying...(crying relieves stress) and if he's not crying,it's not fine.really. i'll be as concerned if it's others too.. 'cause his face was so red...but the weird thing is,his face was nt as red as darren's... anyways,back to tt soloist,final statement,i thought he was going to faint. but if it was me,i would have alrd turned even redder than darren.. (that's really bad,considering that darren's face is alrd often redder than a..whats-it,tomato) i'd have got a nervous breakdown and started chewing on my shoelaces. k,tt's the extreme. anyway,i know guys won't cry so easily... btw,mr tan's earring is nice,his necklace too. but the thing that i can't stand about him is,he's always wearing his deodorant/perfume... just a question: does he have body odour? |
| I LOVE RAINBOW-ee ♥ 5:54 AM |
| Saturday, February 21, 2009 |
i think i knew why. i cried in front of him,not because he was forcing the answer out of me... but it's because the more he asked and tried to force the answer out of me,the more i realised that i didn't know what he was asking from me. i cried because he made me realise that i'm so weak in physics that i don't know what he want from me. i cried because the more he flipped the piece of paper,he reminded me of my stupidity and ignorance. i cried because everyone else could do well,but i didn't. i cried because i knew that the problem lies on me,not him. ...but after crying,i understood certain things. every year in AI,i will cry,due to certain reasons... and everytime after i cry,i understand some things.... sec 2 i cried in front of mdm loh... due to no particular reasons too... but it made me think really deeply.... personally,crying makes me think about the problem... and now,i no longer dislike mdm loh... we even talked along the stairs weeks ago.... after seeing him due to my marks...didn't immediately go for co. didn't feel like it. but in the end,i did. i'm not one who skips cca,though i often speak of it. mr ng cheered me up. rina cheered me up.CO cheered me up. the music did. it's ok if i didn't do well for my past 3 physics test.... i'll just work hard,and i have a new goal for my 2009. this method,...: i ,tan zhi ting, WILL AND SHALL GET 1 OF THE TOP IN PHYSICS. done. *sigh of relief* this method works 100%. i learnt it from a guy. it worked for him,so i'm sure that it'll work for me too! credits to RINA FOO for being by my side when i was crying.... even though she was half-smiling when she gave me tissue paper,but that made me laugh + cry. credits to MR NG for cheering me up with his silly jokes. to the teacher who made me understand certain things. and lastly,not forgetting the guy who taught me that method indirectly. ps: to jynlem- i just can't find the "link"button... so i can't link jialin....next time when you come,you have to link... and i wonder...why is it that im still blur when using blogger... |
| I LOVE RAINBOW-ee ♥ 6:12 PM |
| Wednesday, February 18, 2009 |
physics test-lenses..failed ...1/10.... thn gregory was like looking @ me like im a stupid idiot... i seriously hate guys looking at me like tt... he must be wondering hw stupid i can be... bt..nvm let him think what he want.... btw...i just saw a friend's blog..abt her and her bf.... thoughts: this kind of relationship won't last long for sec schools...really. it's hard to know.maybe you may regret and change ur mind about certain things when u grow up. maybe things may change when u meet a punk in future... all of us are just satisfying one another's needs... desperate for love... some ppl are changing 1 bf after another..and i really dunno why... is this fun? to THINK that you love tt guy..and in the end...u 2 break up.. and thn u find another guy again..... ppl are really stupid..i really dunno wht they are doing... especially singaporean ppl...even though I AM 1... |
| I LOVE RAINBOW-ee ♥ 5:29 AM |
| Friday, February 13, 2009 |
i started describing some of the poeple i know to jynlem...and she expectedly told everyone.... anyway,i was talking to jynlem when a guy named james came by... i took a closer look @ that guy...and some idea just popped up in my mind... then i just blurted it out"he looks really like a cat".... couldn't help it,it just popped into my mind... and there's tee yong..he resembles uncannily like a cartoon character... okay,i'm being mean but ... and the way tee yong speaks,is so funny...the moment i look at him,i can laugh.. .just like how,when i look at darren,i can laugh without knowing why... today,liuqin got scolded by mr ng.... and heck,i didn't eat my lunch and was like about to vomit... try skipping a meal. and i was really trying to force back the urge to vomit...and partly because my stomach doesnt have anything to vomit out too... and so i was so tired and weak,when mr ng scolded us... it was really a bad timing.... and anyway,i'm satrting to feel the strain and stress..bt i'll still try to carry on.... 'i looked @ william. and i think he also looked @ me,or maybe he was looking @ rina. thn i ignored his glare' this proves again,.tt i've stopped being psychic over him. bt i think sooner or later, i'll ahve to speak to him... 'cause i think he'll be the chair soon....and it will just continue to be awkward between us... and anyway,i also wanna know what happen tt make him stop talking to me... cos he's jynlem's fren...it'll just be awkward... bt alas,let things flow smoothly,certain things cant be forced... |
| I LOVE RAINBOW-ee ♥ 3:47 AM |
| Tuesday, February 10, 2009 |
tell me to catch a frisbee and i'll stand there watching the frisbee drop.. tell me to dig a volleyball and i'll do it,provided tt it falls on my head... really,i'm so bad in all these... anyway,my goal is to aim for music,i'm into music,singing,dance,bio and these sort.. nt the sort like...PE,physics...maths...and the lot. so...sad to say,i failed my physics test.again. 2/10. and before i got the test back,i told nazhiifah(sitting beside me).. "if i dun get 0/10,i shall cut some of my hair away" she agreeed. and i gt test back. i gt 2/10!!!! guess mr fong gave tt for pity marks... bt i gt 2!!! so,nazhiifah cut some of my ponytail away... anyway,ate only oreo for lunch...thn when me and jynlem are going to sit on the bench outside co rm...there was a sudden downpour... as i was walking in front of jynlem,i gt kinda .. "huh"??!!! O.O!!! because i was thinking,why will it be raining now...with the bright sun and all.. and even still,the weird part is,it was raining on tt particular spot.. thn i kept on walking..water didnt land on me... thn it took m a while to understand tt,actually there was someone pouring water from up.. johnathan,kenneth,niko... haiz...thn the 2nd time i went to throw my preo packet,the water came down again..nt on me.. anyway,self-prac went well...although there's blister again... and the best part is..i know im trying to boast but.. i've ,mastered the 2nd sentence of song of cicada on yangqin... qiuyan is so great!!! she demo for me,bt most is i figure out myself 1..hehe! pipa..actually it sounded great when i heard 'ju hua tai' on pipa... bt guess,shichun wont hv the time 2 teach me... though it sounded real nice!!!! ps:i can always sit straight up with a pipa..cos it's so tall!!!... and i can always slouch with a liuqin,cos it's so short.. |
| I LOVE RAINBOW-ee ♥ 2:51 AM |
| Friday, February 6, 2009 |
and last period..had physics test... i was sitting there staring @ the paper...wondering what to do... staring @ all the human beasts around me busy scribbling away... and i thought to myself,why is it that thye know what they should do,while i'm just blur... anyway,i don't think i scored anything for that paper,'cause i left blanks for most of it... and the fact that,the physics test had only 3 questions,didn't help.. i didn't know how to do all 3...and bless my soul...i know i'm in physics SRP now... there's no use trying to deceive myself. the problem when you come to one of the top classes,when you're not exactly clever... is,you don't have the guarantee you'll catch up with everyone at the start.. well, it's my life... i'll just catch up to those inhuman beasts soon! yeah? because zhi ting has become cheerful. i will work hard to stay in 3e4! triple science class! gogogo! IT"S MY LIFE!!! i won't wail or whine when i see my physics test with a zero on it,or with a "see me" on it... i won't be like other girls who break down and cry after seeing the marks.. in fact,i'm 1 of the few girls who get zero in their entire lifetime. 'cause few girls ever scored exactly zero for their tests... and actually,there's nothing to cry about. eg: when i gt my chemistry test back,it was an exact zero,no more and no less... i didn't cry.like i said,there's no reason to cry. i shall just work really really,extra hard to catch up with 3e4. i've changed.in the past,i break down and cry whenever any teachers scold me... but now,i don't cry whenever teachers scold me. i don't cry when i fail my tests... i've decided to study hard. and for co,i'm practising my taifeng too... and i even did some taifeng today... doing taifeng in front of everyone isn't an easy task.. and in front of the person i liked. but anyway,i did it. note that i put certain words in past tense. and for jynlem,please do not exaggerate this. i know that you like to exaggerate specific things,but not this,okay? 'cause i've really stop treating him as my crush. when i look him directly in the eyes now,i don't feel my heart racing. oh,and...today mr ng didn't scold most of us..he was in a good mood... so maybe tanbo's taifeng impressed him? okay,fine... ps: lately,i've fallen in love with korean songs. -jynlem and my friendship is getting better,we're returning to how we were like during sec 1 before knowing 'him'. |
| I LOVE RAINBOW-ee ♥ 2:27 AM |
| Tuesday, February 3, 2009 |
i didnt know how to do the previous two worksheets of light- i only know how to do the latest one. eek. tmr got e-math test and history test; tests are real bad. you only know how terrible it was after you have gotten back your tests results. gonna work extremely hard for this year, i will not drop physics but music instead. i want to take grd 8 practical in 2 years time, if possible, next year. i want to teach other people piano :D want to learn piano thn must find me hor. (advertising, lol.) charge one hour for $30 for grd 1-3, $45 for grd 4-6. kidding uh. |
| I LOVE RAINBOW-ee ♥ 3:26 AM |
mr fong's so cartoon...he looks like a professor from some kind of cartoon... anyway,had self-prac today...was wonderful...for some reason,everyone played to their fullest... and everyone tried their best... and the best part is..RINA SAID I IMPROVED IN MY VOLUME!!! yeah,i also feel tt for some reason,i played my loudest... every1 played as loud as possible...even shichun was talking about it... anyway,it ended well,with qianhui cheering"tanbo is great"! i also thikn tt tanbo,guanyue and erhu..tanbo hv the strongest sec 2 team of pipa and liuqin ever... cos after jiale they all go next yr,erhu wont hv any "pro juniors"..guanyue also.. bt tanbo hv a team of pipa and liuqin..(sec 2 this yr) yeah! :D tanbo shall be the strongest in co for the nxt few yrs in future! 灌籃的你。。。 i've nv liked any guy before,excluding my past immature infatuations(i've matured a bit) ps:jynlem,the CIP thing tt we were talking about...was so..LOL |
| I LOVE RAINBOW-ee ♥ 3:03 AM |
| Monday, February 2, 2009 |
wonder if i'll pass my practical piano exams... :O okay...i'll like to emphasise on the fact tt jynlem still hasn't updated this blog... you're a jerk...you're so hardworking tt you make me feel disgusted...you're always scoring 1 of the tops in class.. -.-! but nvm...she's a workaholic,i'll stop here,or else she'll scream in my ears again... anyway...gt 2 "see me" on physics assignment..and 1 "see me" on A-maths... woot! it's only feb and i gt 3 "see me" for my work...great. this class is so hardworking,and clever,and know-it-all... but i'll try to ctch up with they all... okay,fine day,co..bad... jynlem didn't come(o-level music)... actually...a lot of ppl didnt go combine...QH came,bt she was busy with the sec 1s... thn..darren...don't know..probably skip combine again... all the SL are like so busy...and mr ng scolded us...tanbo didnt get scolded!.... k,i think mr ng nearly cried..he nearly burst into tears... i mean,i think he felt sad,disappointed,dejected,angry,discouraged,irritated,helpless... k,i'll stop all my nonsense... anyway,i pity him.being a conductor isnt an easy thing... and i also think it's ridiculous for the zhonghu still nt knowing their fingerings after like about so long... no wonder mr ng blew his top...mr tan came too(teaching sec 1) his perfume makes me dizzy btw,i don't think i hv the chance topractise yangqin as often now.. cos i hv 2 let qiuyan practise...and there's the sec 1 thingy.... bt i'll try to touch tt instrument for every self-practice i go.. wish me luck for the chem. test tmr! and for everything tmr! wish anyone who comes by this blog... a happy 2009! and be successful in 2009! btw..i wonder if anyone comes by here... :believe tt i can do it...practicals,combines,tests...and you too! |
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