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| Friday, June 26, 2009 |
especially love the korean boyband 'SHINee' jong hyun and key! key's voice is so calming...like a lullaby. and jong hyun's voice is so kim-jae-joong-alike.... i love SHINee's songs. the sudden liking of korean songs and korean stuff... oh,i'm going berserk. went to kinokuniya with dad and mum...since they said they haven't gone out with me for very long,and since dad said he wanted to go there and find some books,and since i also wanted to find some interesting books,and since dad said he'd recommend me some books on counselling and other meaningful books. yeah,so many "since"s. anyway i saw many funny and interesting books.and since i was at the "chinese" section all the time,i barely stepped out and find english books. partly because i thought chinese language is always more meaningful than english. and partly 'cause i've always liked chinese,not that i don't like english. and partly 'cause i'm proud of being a chinese,and proud that my ancestor is from china. and partly 'cause i thought chinese expresses my emotiions clearly. and partly 'cause i speak chinese most of the time. yeah,so many "partly because"... in the end,dad bought many study books on counselling and stuffs.. even though our house is piling with those counselling books... even though he's already so clever... even though he has tonnes of those books... and i bought 1 chinese book wihc i thought was meaningful. anyway,mum wanted to stop by takashimaya and walk around.... but then she was so hesitant that dad and i got fed up.so in the end we didn't go. sometimes,i ever think that if dad hadn't married her,what'd her life be like... 'cause not many men can stand her attitude... not forgetting dad's clever while she's average... well,i'll never know. and well,i said some hurtful words here,and am feeling guilty. but well again,this is a private blog. but i know there will definitely be someone looking at this...like the government or someone else... well well well...anyway,i'm getting quite fine for being an SL... and i think i'm improving on my liuqin skills,even though my skills may not be on par with rina. anyway,cassandra finally spoke to me...administrative stuff...nothing big. 1st impression of her when i 1st saw her: acts a bit tough but now i think she has her cute side too. it's just that she acts tough on the exterior side...she may not seem very friendly,but i believe she is friendly on the inside. :) anyway,besides being obsessed with korean music,i've also taken a liking to junma. i love the liuqin part. today's life quote: everyone is special. |
| I LOVE RAINBOW-ee ♥ 5:09 AM |
| Wednesday, June 24, 2009 |
and i'm sorry towards tt particular person...and even more sorry towards myself,'cause i'll get whacked by ppl tmr... oh dear... :( i'll really do smth about this. uguu~ i so worry for my safety. xd |
| I LOVE RAINBOW-ee ♥ 6:17 PM |
| Monday, June 22, 2009 |
and the new song is nice...i can say i'm interested in it.(after mr tan played it) holiday assignment still not done...i need to finish it soon... i'm happy now.yes,currently. i forget unhappy things whenever there's music. i love music... :) |
| I LOVE RAINBOW-ee ♥ 2:55 PM |
| Saturday, June 20, 2009 |
i wanna join SCO too....or PA also can larh....with those pro pro ppl. :) *oohhh*...among my friends,no 1 wants to be a musician... 1 wants to be a doctor,another wants to be a 'businesswoman'... ahhhh....why no one want to be musician... |
| I LOVE RAINBOW-ee ♥ 10:28 PM |
| Wednesday, June 17, 2009 |
so grateful..'cause seeing her made me feel braver. it's not that i dislike toh,but the way she looked @ me was so..."are you up to it"..kind of feeling... this friday will be the 1st real day i'm going to take over...'cause qianhui won't be coming to help anymore...i'm on my own,the cruel truth. i don't know how i'm gonna manage,but deep down in my heart,i believe i can manage it somehow....although i'm feeling ever so scared,for no particular reason... there's nothing much to scared,but i am just feeling scared... checking: is being SL so difficult? must i always care about what others think of me? must i always worry about the small little things? must i not believe in myself? ....i must believe that i can do it... anyway,rina kept asking me to go out cycling with her,i rejected. then she asked me out for SCO concert...actually i was thinking of going with her but then,i rmb tt i hv braces app on tt day... so im thinking...being the SL, must at least go for the performance to show some initiative....so im thinking of postponing my app. if it's successfully postponed,i shall go with rina for the SCO concert. it shall be our 1st time going out together..(excluding the CATS performance)... *i must have faith in myself *others can do it. so can i. what's so difficult about this? *be brave. don't care about what others think,even if i do smth embarrassing. *lastly,smile....be happy. :) |
| I LOVE RAINBOW-ee ♥ 4:06 AM |
| Tuesday, June 16, 2009 |
这是上天给予我的机会，让我发掘潜在的能力。 从中，相信也会加强我的自信心和领导能力。 祝弹拨乐成功！ |
| I LOVE RAINBOW-ee ♥ 5:22 AM |
| Monday, June 15, 2009 |
she's so much better a candidate than me.... and most of all,she has leadership qualities...the most important thing,that i don't have. ...i'm really in a dilemma. i'm thinking of giving up this post...but i remember what dad once said, "why do you wsnt to give up...? how do you know you can't do it?..... when you haven't even tried it?" |
| I LOVE RAINBOW-ee ♥ 12:41 PM |
| Friday, June 12, 2009 |
what are you to use that tone of voice? still,for the umpteenth time,you don't know that i have changed... yeah.we are in different class now. ppl will change. and you're still imposing your own opinions on me. i'm no longer how i seem to be. but might as well. i really don't wish to be friends with gangsters too. u still think upon me as a quiet girl.yes. and i don't know how on earth to explain to you. when we're not even in the same class and when we seldom meet. but i guess i don't need to explain.really. i don't even want to explain it to you. is it that i seldom expose my 'cheerful' side to you,such that you think of me as a quiet girl? i don't like to talk most of the time.yes.even if i do,i seldom talk to guys.so,it irked you for 2 yrs huh? you couldn't stand the quietness huh? that was me 2 yrs ago...i've changed. even if it's just a tiny bit. did it irritate you that i nv once talk 2 you ,even when you're just sitting beside me for so many yrs? so wht do you want me to say? 'hi' to you everyday for nth? yes.it is that i adapt slower thn normal ppl to new environments... and nw even when i've changed,old classmates still take me as a quiet person,so they don't talk to me. and i also hv nth 2 say 2 them. bt i try 2 talk 2 new classmates...i shall try even better... and i shall improve on my sports(badminton) thinking back,i seldom let ppl know what im thinking...except for a few frens... for me,it takes at least 1 yr to know me really well...even if it is so,u may nt know all abt me too. nw,i wonder hw much effort rina foo took,to understand me. so wei da! and i only show my 'cheerful' side to her! to all those other ppl...they only knw my quiet side... wu....i miss rina foo very much... an irony: a bright ,optimistic and cheeerful girl,managed to befriend, a girl tt every1 tot upon as quiet and emo . 2 girls with totally different chracters managed to befriend each other. it's the most happiest thing in my life. :) |
| I LOVE RAINBOW-ee ♥ 1:09 AM |
| Thursday, June 11, 2009 |
her voice is special,and i feel surprisingly depressed hearing this song... that,i have no idea why. but i love most of her songs. makes me reminisce of the past....maybe i'll rewatch 'miss no good' again... but i can't watch it now 'cause bro's at home... i can't load any shows on my computer....so i have to use my bro's computer... and i can only use it when he's not at home... and it's really amazing how he can sleep and stay at home as and when he wants to,and not go to school. temasek poly sure is a relaxed school... well,i sure aren't following him. co practices are coming soon...this holiday is really short... |
| I LOVE RAINBOW-ee ♥ 7:53 PM |
| Wednesday, June 10, 2009 |
mind you...i was still sleeping soundly when she pulled the bedsheets away from me and shouted for me to wake up...everyone must have had this kind of experience so you know how hateful it is to be woken up so early in the morning....but alas,i have no choice,because i promised mum to clean the temple with her... so...still yawning away,i ate my breakfast...since bro has to attend schoool for presentation today,he dropped bro at temasek poly..and drove mum and me to the temple,which was miles away..and then dad went for appointment himself... cleaning tt ginormous temple proved hard work...together with some ppl...the temple was finally cleaned...those ppl were all aged 50-60..and i was the only 1 that stood out from them....from this trip,i observed the different types of ppl...their behaviour and all tt....maybe i can talk about tt with dad when he has time... anyway,i got myself a huge blister on the underside of my big toe... i'm not close with you...why are you talking to me everytime i'm online... i'm not angry or anything...but i just don't know how to say my feelings to you when you're saying all these to me. those questions made me unable to answer you...and i really hope from the bottom of my heart that you'll stop asking those... and i don't know how to say it to you.... there are certain things that you really shouldn't ask when in fact,we're not very close.... yes. we are still friends. but i think,if you're still doing this,i'll get angry. i'm trying my best to keep it in. and....there's lots of thing i didn't say to you for fear of hurting you... in fact,we don't know each other at all... but on a brighter note...i guess you can call the number below for counselling. :) and maybe if you're lucky,you'll get my dad to counsel you,if nt,other ppl. ps: there's no number here,'cause i forgot tt counsellor number... i'll ask my dad again next time! :) |
| I LOVE RAINBOW-ee ♥ 5:43 AM |
| Monday, June 8, 2009 |
 lol...i saw this on rina's blog..so i thought of putting it here too.... |
| I LOVE RAINBOW-ee ♥ 6:45 PM |
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