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Giveaway by Miwitch

2011-07-15T20:01:00.000-07:00

Hey guys, I know this is kind of a long long time never update>.< Zhi, you dun blame me hor:(

I know that you'll still be reading, especially the fashion post i posted last time(very very long).

Nevertheless, just wanna share something interesting I found online.

There's a giveaway by miwitch and it's really nice of her!

Hop over to Miwitch and take part in her giveaways, you might walk away with these babies!

Zhi, maybe we'll be out someday this week?

2010-06-11T23:24:00.001-07:00

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2010-02-11T06:36:00.000-08:00

may nt be posting in this blog anymore.
suddenly feel like hving a chinese blog again..since i've abandoned my chinese blog for so many mths...
so I"VE DECIDED TO OPEN IT AGAIN! haha!! ^^

and btw..recent posts in this blog hv been deleted by me due 2 personal reasons..

2009-09-20T00:17:00.000-07:00

如果一切都能重來的話，我一定証明給你看。
可惜。。。

但是這次我還是想証明給你看。。。
我能在那裏過9個月，不是因爲運氣，而是凴實力。

2009-09-18T03:17:00.001-07:00

today was,surprisingly a fine day...
i found myself,not enjoying lessons so much with this seating plan...i've no idea why...
anyway...the physics test today was not very well done...i shall see the results next week...
physics practical...with greg...it was fine...except tt ashwin kept on saying that he pity me because greg is my partner...i could only just laugh along with ashwin...
because i quite agree. we did the starting point wrongly.
so it isn't very good to put 2 sotongs together.

bio srp after school..sat beside eunice...
for the bio ws,eunice wrote "A" for the ans and i wrote "B"...
then she kept on asking what was the ans...and i too kept on replying tt i didn't know..
thn she wanted me to ask jeffrey(who was sitting with greg behind us)...
i told her im nt on speaking terms with jeffrey,not tt he's unfriendly or whatever....
i asked her to ask herself,bt she said it'd be weird if she turn around to ask...
bt in the end,she asked jeffrey herself.
for the rest of the bio srp,we spent our time discussing about eunice and greg...

thn after tt,went for comm meeting with eunice.
the day ended like tt.
went home.and found tt it was too late for my piano lessons..
so i just skipped it and told the teacher 1 crappy excuse tt she surprising believed.

i'm not all over you now.i've changed.even if my outer appearance may look the same to you.

2009-09-15T02:57:00.000-07:00

today was the 1st day sitting with rina...
although i really liked the old arrangement,but i also don't really mind the new arrangement...
it's just that...i miss the 4 of us laughing together... *sigh*
and i realised tt i didn't laugh so much today...there was nth tt could cheer me up.
bt thn...im thankful tt im sitting with rina,and nt some other ppl whom i shall nt name...
bt rina is always hungry..... *throws hands up in the air* -rah-!!!

anyway,it was a moody day..nth went right.
i shall believe tt tmr will be a better day.

i've seen many many ppl get hurt by the frisbee...
i'm starting to develop a phobia...actually,i've always been scared of it...
i just want badminton badly...

`why....why...why.....~ :(

2009-09-13T13:55:00.000-07:00

ytd had a dream...of 2 ppl...the 2 ppl hv names tt sound exactly the same.
in the dream,i'd called out to the girl...bt the guy was coincidentally walking past and thn he turned......
....

i can only rmb these much. but it was kind of vivid.the faces and all.

anw...i went 2 search on some songs..thn decided to try listening to 'change the world'.
it's an old song frm my fav anime'inuyasha'.....yeah,tt anime is totally great...
k,i can see im the only 1 enthu over here....yeah.

2009-09-03T21:12:00.000-07:00

rina said she can't visit my blog anymore...there must be a technical problem somewhere...
but anyway,i wasn't even keen on letting anyone see my blog..it's supposed to be private.
maybe i should set a password to it someday...

the trip to marina barrage was fruitful...actually i didn't learn anything,and i doubt anyone did.
what made me happy was that,i finally get to take pictures with rina!
although it was a bit windy and our hairstyles were ruined,but we finally got a 'friendship photo' of our own!! yay! i'll ask her for the pictures tmr...

anyway,the place i loved the most was the big big grass patch tt the guide took us...
the place where there's a big field where ppl flew kites..adjoining the place where there's the sea...
just wish we could hv stayed there longer...the breeze from the sea really made me relax...and i asked rina to help me take an emo pic! yay!.. :D
on the way home,it rained...
then the rain stopped...
we got off the bus..
SG saw me,and asked me to take off my specs..
he had been asking me the whole day whether i was the girl who waved to him this morning in school...and the whole day i had been telling him it was nt me. and it really wasn't me.
but he kept insisting tt it was me,and saying tt the girl who waved to him looked like me.

and i also kept replying tt it REALLY was nt me.
thn SG saw zafri and gang...thn he went home with them.
and i was SAVED. phew... -_-!!!
maybe it's the age gap...(shakes head)..

2009-09-01T17:26:00.000-07:00

did some hw..then watched some shows on mioTV...
after tt went back to doing hw,and went to youtube to search for some songs...
and then listened to 'super mario' on youtube ...it's by PA...
their version is absolutely marvellous...and i like their costume when they were playing 'super mario'.
then went to search for some piano music...
stumbled upon a piece,which is quite nice..it's called 'the unfinished story'...
it made me think about how difficult life is...but it motivated me to carry on no matter what.

the weather's very good today...because it has been raining for the whole day..rainy days always make me think about a lot of things...
so i'm being a bit emotional again...
teacher's day celebration was not too bad...there were many things to laugh about...but actually it depends on who you're with and the situation.
but then,overall it was quite good.
nicole won't be coming for this whole week...i'm going to miss her company...although it's just 2 days,but well...

2009-08-27T17:15:00.000-07:00

it was a rainy day today...it suited my mood today. because i wasn't feeling good at all...
i failed triple science and a-math...and my chinese deproved...
my spirit was dampened...but i know i still need to give it my best for SA2...

for some coincidental reason..i was watching LZ 2 and the soundtrack was simialr to the

2009-08-25T18:29:00.000-07:00

tuesday...we learnt new things for chemistry...some simple calculations that i roughly understand...
ms chong changed our seating arrangement today...i'm still sitting at the back row with nicole,but eunice is also nw sitting beside me...i'm in the middle.
in front of me is jialin,guohuang and bingcheng...i like this arrangement very much...a 3 by 3 arrangement...
because it's sepcial,and because 2 by 2 and 4 by 4 is too old fashioned...
well,after 2:10pm ,3e4 stayed back to do redox test...it was difficult. i know i'll fail,but the more impt thing is i know now tt i need to improve on my redox.

stayed back after school to do chemistry test(preparation of salts) with ashwini and gauri...chatted and did the test...was fun.
went back home after that.
choosing the setpiece for co...i don't know which 1 to choose...eunice says she's giving them mambo...
bt for us,it's just too easy.maybe i'll give tuoling...
looking forward to it..i believe it's gonna be fun.
:)

ganbateh tanbo~ and co!

2009-08-21T22:13:00.000-07:00

yesterday there was combine practice for co...it went quite well,just tt i only know how to play MAMBO until bar H...and the singing part was fun!
because i didn't come for the previous combine,so it was the 1st time i sang for MAMBO...so i learnt the rhythm of the singing part on the spot!..hehe
冬 was fun too...although it's difficult. i love our liuqin part for bar 9! it goes very fast but i just love it!
mr ng told us many jokes...it was an enjoyable day. though we didn't practise 陀铃响叮当.
i continued practising 陀铃响叮当 during break...and found that this song is also quite nice. 'cause it gives me a very queer feeling.
it suits me well,i think because i'm a weird person,like how the song makes ppl feel.just weird.
i just wish that mr ng will let us learn<宫商角徵羽>之羽...it's really nice...ever since i heard it during tt concert....
and the songs <春夏秋冬>by mr 卢亮辉 is great too...i just love his songs...
and now we're learning 冬！ :)

i know we'll be faced with a lot of difficulty,but i believe that we can play 冬 well.
we're gonna reassure mr ng tt not only PA can do it,we also can do it.

最后一个机会。我是否能板回一程，就靠这次。
请求上天保佑啊。

2009-08-20T16:41:00.000-07:00

today..finally played badminton! you bet i'm super elated,yeah.
doubles with rina,versus nicole and lynn. It's my 2nd time playing doubles with rina,so you bet i'm happy too!
but that's because charis wasn't here today...so we only had 3 ppl...
anyway,it was fun..but i think i laughed too much. for no reason.
i just love thursdays...

2009-08-16T21:52:00.000-07:00

i've sat beside you for 2 times in these 2 weeks in a row...
you could have sat beside your friend...perhaps you thought tt every1 has to sit according 2 hw they sat the previous week...bt it's nt the case over here...
the 1st time i saw you,i thought you looked strangely familiar...now i've confirmed that it's you...
a coincidental irony.
but i shall choose to pretend not to know you...

but if i were really asked to say smth...this will be my 1st few words.
"it's been 3 years. Hi."

`even now,i'm starting to remember ,3 yrs ago when we played and teased each other...
now we've matured...you look almost the same as 3 yrs ago,except tt u look more mature now...

你数学还是一样利害。

2009-08-13T16:21:00.000-07:00

thursdays are my favourite day...'cause there's no double periods...
most importantly,there's no maths...
honouring day...they suddenly wanted to check our fingernails...luckily i cut it recently...
and luckily...because
i was wearing a black and pink hairclip,and a pink beaded ear-ring....and my skirt was as usual above my knee...(it's not short,it's still considered long ok)
bt then there she was...(mrs chew)...every mon and thurs she will be there catching ppl for their personal bearing... luckily i only gt caught once...
my dad once said.."tt teacher seems to hv more talent in catching ppl,she might as well be a police"
this i very much agree...it's a waste to let such a talented woman be a home econs teacher...

PE was boring...the hall was out of bounds...so we couldnt play badminton...and i also couldnt play badminton with rina after school because of this...
every1 played frisbee...ashwini,alexandra,me and May sat on the bench...all pon-ning PE...
no badminton=thn pon PE...

thn ashwini was talking to me,saying tt i changed a lot frm sec 2 till now...
thn i said "ya lorh"...cos it's true tt i changed...

hmm....nt bad,at least kar mun dare to slap my arm...
actually it was very nice...wish she could hv done it a few more times...lol

went home...

`i want to buy new clothes..well i'll wait until the december holiday...
i've seen some boots and pumps which are very cute...

2009-08-11T18:08:00.000-07:00

finally school start again...
shan't elaborate much...
i can't play doubles very well for badminton....i just don't know why...my skills must be lacking...
but i still like badminton no matter what...
tmr...shall be playing badminton after school with kar mun..(if she's free)

there's bio test,physics test,chem test,ss test,a-math test....
bio is a problem,i love the subject,but...( )

today...after recess,we were waiting for her to come,normally teachers are supposed to come in and we stand and greet them...i was busy minding my own business,thn suddenly i saw jialin stand up,nicole..and the ppl around...didn't know what happened...bt thn after a while,i also stood up,bt still dunno what happened...thn I SAW MRS MALA....( -.-!)

gosh...i actually missed her out.and yeah i didn't see her...ashwin was so tall tt i couldnt even see any part of mrs mala...

just had porridge...mum cooked it.
there's carrot,cabbage and a hard thing that look nt very appealing...
think it's called 'yutou'...

there's someone...i don't rmb knowing such a guy,bt he seems to know me...
and he requested to add me...
another weird person...

2009-08-07T21:48:00.000-07:00

today the school celebrated ND...
1st up were all those marching..thn some stunts performed...
thn we went to hall...over there,i was left awkwardly sitting in the middle.actually it was expected...
but it would hv looked much nicer if someone else was sitting beside me...
and actually charis was sitting beside me,,,but all because of 1 guy that i shall not say out the name,i was left in tt situation...thankfully,jean did help matters somewhere.
so throughout the performance,i was sitting alone,until mayank came and sat beside me..
but there was still a big gap in between us... *sense of boredom*
the performance was great...but i didn't hv a sense of belonging.
after tt,went for my compo test...
and after compo test,went to find rina again...they were playing badminton so i sat aside to watch...guohuang came to talk,and left as suddenly as he'd come.
there was 1 guy who seemed very good in badminton,i could hear the 'smack' sound when his badminton racket hit the shuttlecock...

不能再要求什么。。。

2009-08-06T04:17:00.000-07:00

today was the 1st day i went back to school!...lol...asyari and jialin was the 1st to greet me...
played badminton doubles during PE....the lessons whisked past like being fast-forwarded....
and it was the end of school...had to do english test..so just sat there by myself and doing,partly waiting for rina...
then alex cheah came and talk to me....then i also dunno why so many ppl outside ava room...
all so noisy...think they having lessons or smth...thn finally all of them went in....
thn i find out they having history there...lol...then,sian....faster do my test...

and then after tt rina come out frm srp and said she was going to play badminton...i said i also want...but then it was with darren...
but it would be good if i could play more with rina...
anyway,i was a bit irritated..then lol! i told darren to shut up,'cause he was being very irritating...
ok..that was a bit overboard...lol! and he's my senior. (actually,nice one i did)
anyway,i think i got fed up because i got a blister right after playing with rina...
and so i couldn't do well in the mixed game...
and i was so fed up that i threw my temper like a spoilt kid.. :P

im so 男孩子气...(tomboy)...ga..but tt's why im special. xP

and then...
saw some seniors playing rugby..like so rough..lol
thn all the ppl practising 4 NDP....i look at them also feel tired....
after tt played singles with gauri...nt bad larh..bt by thn my energy all drained....
went home with gauri after tt...

it was a fine day...
and i think today was the only day out of the whole yr tt i was so tomboy. xP
i love badminton. xP

2009-08-04T04:52:00.001-07:00

today actually i was about to go school,but in the end i didn't go again...
and i know i missed a lot of work,so i'm rly gonna work even harder when i get to school...
today..in the afternoons i did some hw...i'm very guai de k... :p
argh...

no matter wht..i still hv 2 smile.
(":

it's friday,but the blog shows it as thursday... )":

2009-07-30T18:23:00.000-07:00

it feels weird that i'm not in school today...mr ng will surely end co session earlier today due to the many absentees...
anyway,the school called me this morning...and asked me many things....
well,it's really a hassle,because it's just a mild fever...
i jsut think they're being hypocritical,saying those things...
well,and i don't get why the doctor gave me a 7 day mc...maybe he thought that my condition will worsen...but no,i was all well this morning...
but i still can't walk properly...it's boring..i don't feel like studying...and i don't want to sleep...
i've slept more than enough...i don't hv anything to do...it's irritating.
maybe i'll practise my piano later...
i'm still having 37.7 fever...(if you call tt a fever....)
now i hv 2 call the school everyday to update them...

`still...at times like these,i finally rmb my piano...
believe it or not,music do heal whatever illness u hv.
(":

2009-07-30T05:11:00.001-07:00

today...was feeling not well,but i still went to school...was hardly listening during physics...
anyway,today a lot of ppl nv come 2 school...all sick...
during the temperature taking early in the morning,my temperature was 37.8.
but i dismissed it as nth...anyway,i played badminton with rina,jynlem and nicole...
it was fun yeah. although i couldn't do 1 overhead shot today...
in the end,during recess,i went back home to rest...although my temperature dropped to 37.7 after playing badminton,i was still nt feeling well...(plying sports when having fever is indeed quite fun)
mayank also went home...he was nt feeling well too.
i went to a clinic after tt...waited for very long...the doctor took another temperature of mine,by thn i was alrd rly hving a fever,at 38.4....
so i gt some medicine and a '1 wk mc'...
and yeah.this is absurd but 1 wk is too long...bt thn i think im nt going to school tmr...
i will hv 2 retake chem test,bio test and physics test....
btw...the antibiotics medicine is rly very smelly...it makes me want to puke whenever i taste it...

`no worries.i'm strong.i shall be back by nxt wk... ;)

2009-07-29T02:16:00.000-07:00

the day ended quite well...just that some of 3e4 were given a notice to stay back tmr,for not handing in work...but the fact was i don't even know which piece of work is to be handed in,and which is nt...-.-!
went back home after school immediately...my throat was not feeling right after lit...
yeah.after lit,where i slept for 1 whole period...mdm kaur went for a meeting...
anyway...tmr there's bio test....*sigh*....i'll go revise now...for once.

mr fong came to talk to me...(we met at the staircase)....
he saw me and purposefully waited for me,and walked up with me...
...thn he asked about hw im coping with physics and stuff....
...

well,has anybody ever told him tt he looks alot like james ng?

-_- ...
okay,i'll go study bio now.

2009-07-28T05:03:00.000-07:00

got back e-maths test and physics test today...failed both today...
actually i knew that those 2 tests would be a failure...just by doing them...
i'm beginning to dslike e-math now...
i'm beginning to like bio,chem and physics...
chem practicals always amaze me...today we handled with concentrated HCL....
because we were the last grp,had no time,so mrs lee told us to do pair work...
jialin let me do it,so reluctantly i just did it...then in the end,it's actually not so scary...
but i just don't like to stay in these labs for too long...it's not good for the body..all the fumes...

...`i just wish she'll speak louder...doesn't she know that it's tiring for me to always strain my ears...
especially when my hearing is already not so good...

*1 good news,mr tbs is going to let us hv our own badminton competition ...
we are to organise ourselves ...it's gonna be fun...(though my badminton skill is still lacking)

~i felt nth when u did tt.

2009-07-27T20:29:00.000-07:00

a very busy day...all the double periods made me drowsy...
CO....charis went to practise with the percussion...mr tan was a bit harsh today..i don't know why...
until she cried......
yes.the word is deja vu. i rmb this happening to me 3 yrs ago when ms yoga was teaching us...
bt thn ms yoga got sent off nt long after...
i secretly feel tt mr tan is scaring off the sec 1s...he doesn't scold zixun....
but he has alrd...(almost) (99.9%) scared off peiyin and peizhen....
2 precious sec 1s.....gone just bcos mr tan scolded 1 of the 2...it's rly partly his fault....
and nw he's picking on her....i rly dunno wht 2 do....am trying rly hard 2 get all of thm back...
can't let mr tan ruin tanbo.
:(
got new scores tdy...those notes made my head spin...it's easy,bt u hv 2 rly concentrate 2 play all the notes correctly.

2009-07-24T04:54:00.000-07:00

friday...busy yeah...you bet.
shan't elaborate on school hours...
had combined and then sectionals...
it's just begun to dawn on me the responsibility tt's waiting for me...the whole tanbo...
...it's just tt i don't want to be like this..i would rather not to hv this responsibility...
because i don't like to be tied down by some burden...i don't feel "free" like this...
like a bird tt's deprived of it's own freedom...
bt the post is confirmed...i guess there's no chance of anyone taking over....
well..i'll just treat this as a chance to know my own potential...
even though i really don't like having this kind of "power"...

yeeah..it may seem easy to you all...but you're not me...you wouldn't know how it feels like...
different ppl feel different things...yeah,you make these sound so easy...
try and do it yourself. you'll know...

2009-07-23T02:20:00.000-07:00

just did a facebook quiz...my results are really accurate...

"Being a deep thinker isn't easy. Deep thinkers face problems. You often lie awake at night, tossing and turning, deeply contemplating unfathomable mysteries, thinking of scientific theories that would drive shallow thinkers insane, Wondering whether a large bowl of chocolate-chip ice cream would help you get to sleep. and you constantly are asking questions--What is eternity? Where does the universe end? Is there intelligent life in outer space? Deep thinkers like you don,t care what others think about you but they are constantly trying to make themselves better and smarter for their own self confidence. You also have probably had a hard life and had to deal with reality therefore you have a better understanding to it than people who don,t work for things. you are a deep person your a leader not a follower. Make use of that. =) "

anyway,today wasn't a good day...i don't know why some ppl just want to shun certain ppl...
the odd 1 out person..did u change? i definitely did change of course....
u didn't know...bt ur faces betrayed u all...i dun blame u all...both of us are damn bad @ sports...
i forgot to say smth 2 'the odd 1 out person'.....
'i could tell frm ur actions and face,tt u were the most irritated 1 over there....
我心底话：这社会有很多种人。。。我们俩只不过不会打羽毛。。。何必这样对待我们呢。。。
将来你出去社会做工，也会遇到难相处的人，你以为自己给他们脸色看他们就会罢休吗？
别什么事都挑别人毛病。。。先照照镜子考察自己行为吧。。。

这是我第一次觉得她比你美多了，没那么心胸狭窄。
你和两年前一样，根本没变。
而她却在这两年里尽本能改掉自己坏习惯。。。这点她比你强太多了。
我奉劝你一句。
'先‘学习怎么好好待人吧,'
in this society,u hv 2 learn hw 2 cooperate and work in harmony,even with ppl tt u dun like.
she did change for the better,bt u didnt.
for once,i feel tt she look more prettier thn u under the lighting...

the bonding between jynlem and i...
it looks very fragile,bt it is very strong.
this time u lost.nt to us.bt to yourself.

2009-07-22T02:57:00.001-07:00

school was quite fun today..partly 'cause there was no physics today...
bio practical was boring...mrs mala was talking like a nobody...i almost couldnt hear frm the back...
bt still,i did the practical...thn jialin,gregory,nicole and me slacked around....
recess.....thn time pass so fast....thn english...i finally gt caught by premela for losing tt piece of ws....LOL...i had been expecting this day to come....
and so i took a walk down to photocopy....slacked around..and thn went up to class...
thn jialin,gregory,nicole and me discussing the english thingy....
thn gt a lot of funny things happen...haha..won't elaborate...

watching “敲敲爱上你”....it's a nice show...i like the theme song...
listening to it nw...“黑裙子"...
i like the singer's voice when he's singing very high pitched...

..sometimes pure coincidences do occur...

很多人都说我变了...
是啊...我的确变了....变得更勇敢了...
整整半年了...

2009-07-21T00:29:00.000-07:00

today was fine...PEG,played badminton...but didn't get to practise much 'cause our grp had 5 ppl...
SS...was about to fall asleep...
chem(p)...quite fun...although mine didn't produce crystals...
bio:boring boring BORING!!!i miss ms chew...
A-math:managed to prop myself up and do some questions ...
EL:we had to present aggain...to accompany nicole...lol!!!
so i went up again...and made a scene of myself as usual...
physics: fun bt i was so tired...so i lied on the table throughout the session...
FT:mr lee siew weng came...did our own stuffs...

my serve is still weak...i want to serve further and more powerful...i'm still figuring out...
mr tan boon seng said thursday we will hv sessions on hw 2 be an umpire...it's gonna be fun yeah!
i've nv ever been an umpire...i'm so excited... :)
bt i think thursday those who failed standing broad jump will hv 2 retake again....*sigh*
and im 1 of them... :(

slightly troubled by peizhen and peiyin...the 2 just wont come 2 co...after mr tan scolded peiyin for her pipa...
im ok with it...im persuading them,no...more like "counselling" them....
bt the problem is they're making it diffcult for charis...and she's irritated by them...
hmm..i shall ask them 2 come on thursday(make up sectional prac)
if only they will come...:) bt i believe they will change their mind about quitting co... :)
things change indefinitely ...just like hw i didnt know we need 2 present again for the EL presentation...
and hence i did hv more courage...yeah. :)

2009-07-19T12:17:00.000-07:00

here's wht i gt for my star sign...:scorpio

Comes across as a very lucky, happy person. Doesn't let much get them down. Has a lot of friends which they hardly ever encounter problems with. Treat their friends like family. Very good at lasting in long term relationships, although sometimes they come across as careless for their partner. Generous but can spot out impurities in anyone, which some people may find bitchy. Likes to think they are intelligent. EXTREMELY vain. Very sexual, which they are not at all embarrassed about. Easily amused. Usually has a nice smile. Cheeky. Funny. Little common sense. Has very strong desires in life. Outgoing. Not many people get the chance to see the REAL them. Attractive. Believes in destiny more than karma.

most of it is true..like havng little common sense and 'not many ppl get the chance to see the real me'...

no comments k? cos u also hv the same star sign as me..lol! :P

2009-07-19T07:00:00.000-07:00

just came back from celebrating my brother's birthday..he's finally 19.
well,i still can't believe that he's already 19,and i'm still 14+...and he treats me like a kid...
but well again,i am one.no comments.there was no birthday cake since we just bought 1 cake fro mum...mum's birthday was on 14th july,bro's is today,19th july...so you see...
we went to a restaurant and eat...yuki came along too...
we ordered some food and ate...then slowly i realised...
yuki was talking to bro...
and dad was talking to mum...so i was left alone again...poor me...
but well,it was fine,really.i was used to it ever since bro got into relationship with yuki...
i shall not feel left out.i did talk to dad and engage myself in conversation...
at around 8+..we left the place...
yuki slept awhile in dad's car since she lives in tampines...
then we reached her house...said goodbye...
went back home...all in all,it didn't really seem like a birthday celebration...
no birthday cake,nothing.
well,i guess big guys like bro doesn't need a birthday cake...
but it just don't seem real enough,...like as if i'm dreaming...
probably...tomorrow morning when i wake up,i'll forget about tonight...
but still,i must say i had a good time.
tomorrow is school day again...i guess we aren't celebrating racial harmony like in the past...
because of h1n1.
and all those double periods on monday...i really don't feel like going ,,,
and co till 6.30pm...tmr...it wil be a tiring day...
i've nv liked mondays...
bt i shall try to like it frm nw on...

friday

2009-07-17T04:25:00.000-07:00

it was nt a very pleasant day..i shall nt say anything about the boring lessons...and elaborate more on co...
we were having a mini combined prac cos there cannt be more thn 50 ppl in 1 enclosed ares...
and i just think tt this is stupid...bt i enjoyed combined today...

mr ng made jokes along the way..and i like the song junma alot...
especially liuqin part...bt overall,it sounds good too...
i feel tt i've improved a little,bt there's still rm 4 improvement...
at least i put al my feelings into junma...
music is good..it makes me relax and forget about all the unhappy things.

i love music still...no matter hw ppl say the music life is difficult to go through...
mr ng inspired me too..credits to him... :)
he's a good conductor,yeah...

...ok...nth much nw..i presented for my EL smoothly..although i was rly scared...
bt i think i did better thn fuchun or huizhi...cos they gt 6/10 while i gt 7!
yeah...7 is nt very gd too..bt..well,i was expecting to fail...
jialin gt 9/10..and she's just wonderful at these kind of things....
learned a lot from her too...

i didn't mean to say this bt..'treat others as hw u would like others 2 treat u...
im nt a calculating person,bt just don't go too far ...
watch wht u're saying...and ur actions...there's a limit to my tolerance.

2009-07-16T03:29:00.000-07:00

mdm yap stepped in to 3e4 and the 1st thing she did was to question us on the litter in our classroom...
i remember her doing that last yr and the yr before last yr too...and tt's really irritating ok...?
thn she showed us the video which kept on lagging....(is tt supposed to be live?)
if it's so lagging so badly,might as well don't let us watch it.
cos it was giving me a really bad headache...and i mean it.
i was watching the thing load for so long and staring @ tt revolving icon,until i got tired of it...
i actually wanted to do smth impolite to mdm yap...i shall nt mention here.
bt my mood was nt very gd after waiting for the video to load,and in the end it kept on getting stuck...
after tt was physics...normal lesson as usual...mr fong was cranky...
english lesson made me laugh a lot...
PE lesson made me want to shout in mr tan's face...
how can he ask some of us to practise the broad jump,when i wanted so badly to play badminton?! in fact i'd been witing for thurs 2 come so tt i can play badminton...
hw could he destroy my hope....
bt then i just went with some others 2 practise broad jump...all of us were sulking...
lit came...listened to mdm kaur lecture...and as usual,if mdm kaur ask u a yes/no question...
just ans "yes"...and it will be fine...
mdm kaur:do u understand the passage?
us:yes!!!
mdm kaur:can u see hw the writer write the poem?
us:yes
mdm kaur:do u see the relationship between the father and son?
us:yes....

bio lesson...boring..ms chew is gone...and i don't really like mrs mala...
she has started scolding us on her 2nd day of teaching...heck no...
she and her"teach less learn more" motto...in fact,i didn't even learn anything...
so for the whole period,i was planning my organiser and deciding on which subs to revise...
mrs mala was looking @ me bt i don't care.heck no,i shall ignore her.
gregory and ryan got scolded cos they were talking...
mrs mala soclded them,saying tt they're disrupting the lesson...
when she's the one disrupting it...
then monikca was reading national geographic...
and then mrs mala scolded her...also for disrupting the lesson...
when still,she's the one disrupting it,and nt monikca...
hw can reading a book in a bio lesson be called disrupting the lesson...oh man...

MT lesson...really boring..i just wish xulaoshi won't focus so much on the MT tb..
cos it's common sense tt evn if u read the whole tb,u won't score very well...
why cant she conduct some grp work...or some games or some interesting things...

SS lesson:ms zhang came,with her flu and all...
asyari:(mumbling)can u stop rubbing ur nose like tt?it's disgusting...
actually what he said was very impolite,bt the way he said it was hella funny...

school ended.

haiz..EL presentation either tmr or monday...im scared to death...

wed

2009-07-15T03:44:00.000-07:00

MT: the teacher thought she's teaching SS,crapped so much on SS...
chem:not bad,learned new things...
Bio prac: stayed in class,listened to mrs mala crap on more things...
and her motto is "teach less,learn more"...
我呸！...in the end,we were the ones teaching her and she's the one learning...
EL: laughed the most.mdm premela is funny.see other ppl present,gave me hope and yet,made me anxious to get it over with...we're probably presenting tmr...
A-math:still don't know how to do the sums,and didn't bother to ask ms rosy...
lit:mdm kaur won't even let me sleep for 1 min..her voice is so loud...
E-math:free period...ms chong doesn't care...

ok.btw the reason why my grp didnt present for EL is because...
gregory fell sick...(flu)....(who'd hv thought tt he'd fall sick @ this timing)
and then we at 1st decide 2 continue presenting with just jialin,nicole and me...but thn nicole took her temperature and it's 38.9...
(actually she was sick ytd,and tdy the whole day,her temperature 4 this morn was higher thn expected,actually she shld hv gone home this morn...
bt she didnt,anyway at 12.10...she showed premela her temperature...
and premela's reaction was funny...anyway,nicole packed her bag and went home to rest...(fever leh!!!)
jialin was asked by premela to accompany nicole down...
and so our grp...
gregory:sick(flu)
nicole:sick(fever)
jialin:well
zhi ting:well(heartbeat go back 2 normal cos dun need present)

what a grp. :o
i wonder if the greg and nicole are coming tmr...
actually...i think greg will cm...in fact,i think he didnt come tdy cos he just didnt want 2 let xulaoshi scold him...
as for nicole...i doubt she will come,hv fever,hv 2 rest...

*sigh*

2009-07-14T03:19:00.000-07:00

today was fine day...PE was great..played doubles with jean,jynlem and lynn...
jean is a great partner...reckon i can improve faster if we play in doubles... :()
for SS lesson,ms zhang talked on about the test and stuff...
chem prac: finally didnt get scolded by mrs lee,which is a good thing.
bio:mrs mala is not bad,but she should have printed the diagrams for us too,to save us from all the drawing...
A-math:didn't understand what ms rosy was talking...slacked on.
EL:grp discussion with jialin,gregory and nicole...funny and enjoyable.
physics:listen to mr fong...learned 3 new formulas...
FT:it shld be renamed "Free-period Talking"...
talked to nicole for 1 whole peiord...

the day ended smoothly,there's EL presentation tmr...im sure i can do it well.
whenever i self-console myself,it turns out well. :)
i'm sure,the presentation will be fine.

back home,realised it's mum's birthday.i totally forgot.so i also forgot the present.
and mum bought me a bar of dark chocolate...for fattening or whatever purpose,i don't know...
but i'm still grateful,'cause chocolates make me energetic.
and i think i need to eat more chocos...'cause i think tt for badminton,my overhead shot seems to be a bit weak...
didn't manage to try using left-hand to play,but well...maybe i shall try it on thurs...

oh ya..floorball seems 2 be fun too...bt i still like badminton... :)

2009-07-13T05:06:00.000-07:00

today...all the double lessons...i guess i'm still having monday blues....simply don't like mondays...
and it's a 13 today...*sigh*
the day dread on like an eternity...the teachers drone on like those bumblebees buzzing...
2 a-math and 2e-math lessons together...it will be a wonder not to get bored...
CO started and ended very fast...Tow is being idiotic again..i just don't want to see her...
i don't want to talk to her either,but she's just there talking to me...

tomorrow is tuesday..actually it could hv been a nice day at last...but you see,there's chem tmr...
and nt just any chem..it's chem prac...and i hv to see Lee again...*sighs*
it could hv been just any fine day,'cause there's PE and i can play badminton tmr...
but there's chem praac....*curses*

anyway,if jynlem agrees to be my partner for badminton,i shall play with her again...
good friends are still good friends...us,like how charis and rina are like.. :)
it'd be nice if we form a small girl gang...but i douibt any girls in 3e4 wants to form this gang...
smth like audrey,jiaqian,jean and amanda last yr...
but nvm...that'll wait.

i hv a-math hw and chem tdy...i'm totally clueless of what 2 do for coordinate geometry...
either there's smth wrong with ms rosy,or it's me.
but i think it must be me. *sigh*

ms chew is going...we hv ms mala for bio...
does mr chin think tt we're so clever...?
it's gd 4 teachers to try out,bt certainly nt on us...
i want ms chew 2 come back...only her voice can wake me up during lessons...

~been feeling so sleepy these few days...wish there's someone like amos koh who will disrupt the lesson...3e4 is too good for me... :\

人生的路好坎坷。。。

2009-07-11T00:06:00.000-07:00

一直都想看《画皮》，但那时没空。今天我偶然在报纸上看到广告，让我想起它，便到网上观看。
《画皮》让我了解到夫妻的相爱有多深。。。
王夫人很伟大，服毒并骗丈夫说自己是妖。。。
但我觉得小惟也很伟大，把自己修炼千年的妖丹拿出来救王夫妇。。。但自己却失去人体，变回妖，离开他们。她可以不救他们，让他们死，但她并没这么做，可以看得出她对王生的爱。

啊。。。非常地感动。这电影很赞。

如果我是演员，我会选泽当小惟。。。
特别喜欢这角色。。。人与妖的爱情。。。

但如果小惟不是妖，王生不知会和谁长相思首呐。。。

Honouring : jynlem

2009-07-09T05:28:00.000-07:00

today..thursday..i love thursdays...'cause there's PE..and i can play badminton...
proud to say..i improved!!! i can finally hit some overhead shots!!!
yeah i know it's stupid but still,i didn't even know how to hit overhead shots until now...so it's such a big achievement!
played with jynlem...credits to her because she coached and played against me...
so that i can improve so fast...shall honour her.
i shall try to learn drop shot also. :) and i'll also learn how to play with my left hand...others may think it's stupid but,it's a good thing to try.really.
so i shall learn how to play with both hands... :)
i'm still listening to korean songs...
nowadays,i still can't hear things properly sometimes...
like when jialin,nicole,gregory and me sitting together to discuss project,sometimes i can't really hear properly what they're saying...
my eyes go blurry even more times than before...

i shall dismiss them as fatigue...

妈说女孩子打羽毛看起来会有点粗。。。但我觉得女孩子打羽毛很酷啊！
是林丹激发了我这个念头。
运动也可以解压。。。不错。

2009-07-08T18:19:00.000-07:00

why must she always say those disheartening words...doesn't she know that she's discouraging me?
each time when i finally gain confidence,she'll just cruelly destroy that little confidence.
what's so great about being a xxx? plain biased.
i'll get 1 of them,and prove to you that i can do it.
i'll do it in my style,i shall be different from those goody-2-shoes 3e4 ppl.
and to prove it double,i'll improve on my overall.badminton.piano.co.
i'll get at least 1 A for triple science.

~to smash with the badminton racket,thou shalt smash it through with determination.

2009-07-07T04:15:00.000-07:00

PEG,played with jynlem...okay...we only managed to hit twice overhead...
and i guess that was partly my fault...so i promise to improve on my skills...
'cause i really envy ppl who're gd at sports...especially badminton...
yeah,ever since i watched the olympics(badminton) for which Lin Dan played.
so i thought tt...'well,playing badminton is so cool'.... *ok,enough with this*
i shall skip to chem extra lesson after school...some ppl didnt come...
angered mrs lee...and it was really scary.
anyway,i managed to do all the experiments except the sulfur dioxide 1...
although many ppl had alrd finished all...bt im really happy...
cos given my standard..it's a miracle tt i completed all except 1... xP
and...i broke a test tube...dint think tt it'd break so easily bt well..
it was nt intentional...

i'm still obsessed with korean songs..the korean language is such an amazing language.
korean singers...korean songs....oh... x.x
off to finish up on my hw...

&i hope tt tmr will be a happy day...the day after tmr..& everyday too.

2009-07-05T01:00:00.000-07:00

friday...did not go for school,had my orthodontics (braces) appointment.
after signing the documents for the past mth,michael mah (my doctor) transferred to another hospital...(i guess it's a right choice,'cause the pay is higher there and given his skills,it'd be a waste to stay in SGH)
and then yesterday,i got a new doctor.She's a freshman,i guess.
she's not as good as michael mah but well,anyway i'm taking off my braces by sec 4.
after tt,went for co...shimian was great,though i didn't dare play too hard lest the string break...many seniors came back....
i recognised tanbo seniors,felicia,zijuan,a pipa senior tt looked really familiar...
and another senior guy that played zhongruan,he's the only tanbo senior tt i don't recognise so i guess he graduated quite long ago...

sightreading was a 9-pg piece called '冬'...it's a nice song after figuring the 1st few parts...i actually wanted to play it..but the examiners said tt was enough...well..

sat: went for tuition...it's a 3hr tuition so you can imagine the boredom.
it migth be better if it was a chinese lesson or what,but no.
it was a e-math continued by a-math lesson.
e-math started.many ppl came.
i picked the back row..with an empty seat beside me,'cause i didn't want to sit with anyone.
more and more ppl came,and soon the seats were occupied,except the 1 beside mine.
because i was clever enough to block tt seat with another table,so tt someone who wanted to sit there had to push tt table away 1st before sitting.

what i didn't expect was,in the middle of the lesson,another 3 guys came.
and the problem was there's only 1 seat,tt was besie me.
so 1 guy came to push away the table and sit beside me...and i think tt was the same guy who sat beside me last wk...(i didn't bother looking at his face)
the other 2 gyus managed to squeeze in and sat in the middle of the classroom(teacher managed to get some chairs an tables)....
i really didn't like it...there were guys surrounding me.
and the friend of 'the guy sitting beside me' kept turning around to look at the both of us,and smiling at us like we did smth wrong...
anyway,the lesson ended..tt guy left...a-math started.
another guy came and sat beside me. imagine my frustration...
and he was someone whom u wouldnt want 2 sit with...
a word to summarise everything of him. 'weird'

at end of lesson,i quickly walked out of the room.

today:it's been raining for so long...nice weather to sleep in...
have to attend piano lesson later...havent practised scales,and i bet lim is going to socld me again....but im determined to do my scales and pieces well today.
im nt going to let her hv any excuse to scold me.
i think after piano im going 2 go home and watch tv.
and some taiwan variety show.
my day is planned ahead.

finally... x...pls do it!

i've been listening to korean songs...again.
SHINee...i'm still wondering how they became idols at such a young age...
when will i hv a chance to meet SHINee...to meet Key...

2009-07-02T05:47:00.001-07:00

today PE lesson was fun!..1st time play badminton with x!
x play better than me,of course....i want x to teach me,but i don't know how x think about it.now,i'm dead sure that finally i can have 1 sports that i'm better at...
at least my badminton is better than my volleyball skills...
at least i know roughly how to serve...and today,today,today...
i hit my 1st overhead shot!!! and x just calmly told me that x didn't see it....
but i think doubles is more difficult....
anyway,took height and weight later...
i'm officially the same height as x!....and who was the one who said i'm shorter?
but i think i can't exceed 165cm...'cause it won't look nice if i'm so tall...
and i gained weight!...that's a good news. and i gained nt only 1 or 2 kg...
i gained 4 kg....hehe....
mr tan: "xxkg"....eh,you need to eat more arh...

then before he could say anything more,i quickly darted away from the pe room....
key....i guess he's still a kid somewhere...though he's older thn me by 3 yrs...
bt nonetheless,it's still such a wonder to be an idol at such a young age...
korea is such a fantastic place...
compareed to the hell over here.

end.

2009-07-01T05:36:00.000-07:00

new timetable...actually this timetable is worse thn the previous 1...
triple sciences in 1 day...e-math and a-math almost everyday...
PE for the 1st lesson...physics prctical for last lesson...
nth can be worse thn all these....i'll really work hard and try my best to immigrate.
'cause this kind of life will really bore me to death...
and 'cause even if you do very well,you might not go into whatever job u wan...
eg..doctor...business...seriously everyone is turning into arrogant ppl...
so i shall try my best to immigrate.

anyway...taking class photo today...actually i was standing behind "x"
(btw let the unknown person be x )
and cos x insists that im shorter thn him/her...
when all the while,im nt shorter thn x,it's just tt x's head is bigger thn mine...
and x's width is bigger thn mine...(insulting,bt tt's true.)
and after a while,i gt led in front,cos more and more ppl think im shorter...
in the end,i was the 2nd girl frm the 2nd row...right behind jean...
isn't heaven unfair?
look carefully.observe carefully.think.use ur brain.
thin ppl look smaller...when actually they may be the same height as u.
fat ppl look bigger and taller...bt they may just be the same height as u.
parallax error,ppl....
ah bt well...if i grow taller,it'll be worse,cos im thin enuf...
ah..haha. :)

walked home with gauri...was talking about random things...
back home,charis called. *fast forward*
surfed on net...i've been idolising a korean boyband called 'SHINee'..
their dancing skills are superb,especially Taemin.
of the 5 ppl,i like jong hyun and key the most..hehe

2009-06-26T05:09:00.000-07:00

i'm obsessed with CO and korean music lately! everyday,i've been listening to korean songs,korean songs, and korean songs!
especially love the korean boyband 'SHINee'
jong hyun and key! key's voice is so calming...like a lullaby.
and jong hyun's voice is so kim-jae-joong-alike....
i love SHINee's songs.
the sudden liking of korean songs and korean stuff... oh,i'm going berserk.
went to kinokuniya with dad and mum...since they said they haven't gone out with me for very long,and since dad said he wanted to go there and find some books,and since i also wanted to find some interesting books,and since dad said he'd recommend me some books on counselling and other meaningful books.

yeah,so many "since"s.

anyway i saw many funny and interesting books.and since i was at the "chinese" section all the time,i barely stepped out and find english books.
partly because i thought chinese language is always more meaningful than english.
and partly 'cause i've always liked chinese,not that i don't like english.
and partly 'cause i'm proud of being a chinese,and proud that my ancestor is from china.
and partly 'cause i thought chinese expresses my emotiions clearly.
and partly 'cause i speak chinese most of the time.

yeah,so many "partly because"...

in the end,dad bought many study books on counselling and stuffs..
even though our house is piling with those counselling books...
even though he's already so clever...
even though he has tonnes of those books...

and i bought 1 chinese book wihc i thought was meaningful.
anyway,mum wanted to stop by takashimaya and walk around....
but then she was so hesitant that dad and i got fed up.so in the end we didn't go.

sometimes,i ever think that if dad hadn't married her,what'd her life be like...
'cause not many men can stand her attitude...
not forgetting dad's clever while she's average...
well,i'll never know. and well,i said some hurtful words here,and am feeling guilty.
but well again,this is a private blog.
but i know there will definitely be someone looking at this...like the government or someone else...

well well well...anyway,i'm getting quite fine for being an SL...
and i think i'm improving on my liuqin skills,even though my skills may not be on par with rina.
anyway,cassandra finally spoke to me...administrative stuff...nothing big.
1st impression of her when i 1st saw her: acts a bit tough
but now i think she has her cute side too. it's just that she acts tough on the exterior side...she may not seem very friendly,but i believe she is friendly on the inside. :)

anyway,besides being obsessed with korean music,i've also taken a liking to junma.
i love the liuqin part.

today's life quote: everyone is special.

2009-06-24T18:17:00.000-07:00

how can tt be on the web?!!! *faints* it's embarrassing.
and i'm sorry towards tt particular person...and even more sorry towards myself,'cause i'll get whacked by ppl tmr... oh dear... :(
i'll really do smth about this.

uguu~ i so worry for my safety. xd

2009-06-22T14:55:00.000-07:00

happy news...the new scores are out! i've been waiting for so long....
and the new song is nice...i can say i'm interested in it.(after mr tan played it)
holiday assignment still not done...i need to finish it soon...
i'm happy now.yes,currently. i forget unhappy things whenever there's music.
i love music... :)

2009-06-20T22:28:00.000-07:00

am still missing SCO camp comcert... ooh,it's so fantastic...and the liuqin is so loud loud loud.if only tt were AICO....but we aren't as pro as them...
i wanna join SCO too....or PA also can larh....with those pro pro ppl. :)

*oohhh*...among my friends,no 1 wants to be a musician...
1 wants to be a doctor,another wants to be a 'businesswoman'...
ahhhh....why no one want to be musician...

2009-06-17T04:06:00.001-07:00

today..my 1st day of being SL...qianhui came to help....
so grateful..'cause seeing her made me feel braver.
it's not that i dislike toh,but the way she looked @ me was so..."are you up to it"..kind of feeling...

this friday will be the 1st real day i'm going to take over...'cause qianhui won't be coming to help anymore...i'm on my own,the cruel truth.
i don't know how i'm gonna manage,but deep down in my heart,i believe i can manage it somehow....although i'm feeling ever so scared,for no particular reason...
there's nothing much to scared,but i am just feeling scared...

checking:
is being SL so difficult?
must i always care about what others think of me?
must i always worry about the small little things?
must i not believe in myself?

....i must believe that i can do it...

anyway,rina kept asking me to go out cycling with her,i rejected.
then she asked me out for SCO concert...actually i was thinking of going with her
but then,i rmb tt i hv braces app on tt day...
so im thinking...being the SL, must at least go for the performance to show some initiative....so im thinking of postponing my app.
if it's successfully postponed,i shall go with rina for the SCO concert.
it shall be our 1st time going out together..(excluding the CATS performance)...

*i must have faith in myself
*others can do it. so can i. what's so difficult about this?
*be brave. don't care about what others think,even if i do smth embarrassing.
*lastly,smile....be happy. :)

2009-06-16T05:22:00.000-07:00

想了很久，我终于想通了。我决定接受担任弹拨乐的组长，不管有多艰难，我都会撑下去。
这是上天给予我的机会，让我发掘潜在的能力。
从中，相信也会加强我的自信心和领导能力。
祝弹拨乐成功！

2009-06-15T12:41:00.000-07:00

they elected the new batch of committee today...why isn't rina the sl...?
she's so much better a candidate than me.... and most of all,she has leadership qualities...the most important thing,that i don't have.
...i'm really in a dilemma.
i'm thinking of giving up this post...but
i remember what dad once said,
"why do you wsnt to give up...? how do you know you can't do it?.....
when you haven't even tried it?"

2009-06-12T01:09:00.000-07:00

there's something really irritating about them...what's wrong with them?
what are you to use that tone of voice?
still,for the umpteenth time,you don't know that i have changed...
yeah.we are in different class now. ppl will change. and you're still imposing your own opinions on me.

i'm no longer how i seem to be.
but might as well. i really don't wish to be friends with gangsters too.
u still think upon me as a quiet girl.yes.
and i don't know how on earth to explain to you. when we're not even in the same class and when we seldom meet. but i guess i don't need to explain.really.
i don't even want to explain it to you.

is it that i seldom expose my 'cheerful' side to you,such that you think of me as a quiet girl?

i don't like to talk most of the time.yes.even if i do,i seldom talk to guys.so,it irked you for 2 yrs huh?

you couldn't stand the quietness huh?
that was me 2 yrs ago...i've changed. even if it's just a tiny bit.

did it irritate you that i nv once talk 2 you ,even when you're just sitting beside me for so many yrs? so wht do you want me to say? 'hi' to you everyday for nth?

yes.it is that i adapt slower thn normal ppl to new environments...
and nw even when i've changed,old classmates still take me as a quiet person,so they don't talk to me. and i also hv nth 2 say 2 them.

bt i try 2 talk 2 new classmates...i shall try even better...
and i shall improve on my sports(badminton)

thinking back,i seldom let ppl know what im thinking...except for a few frens...
for me,it takes at least 1 yr to know me really well...even if it is so,u may nt know all abt me too.
nw,i wonder hw much effort rina foo took,to understand me. so wei da!
and i only show my 'cheerful' side to her!

to all those other ppl...they only knw my quiet side...

wu....i miss rina foo very much...

an irony:
a bright ,optimistic and cheeerful girl,managed to befriend,
a girl tt every1 tot upon as quiet and emo .

2 girls with totally different chracters managed to befriend each other.
it's the most happiest thing in my life. :)

2009-06-11T19:53:00.000-07:00

rainie yang... i'm listening to the theme song of "miss no good",带我走....
her voice is special,and i feel surprisingly depressed hearing this song...
that,i have no idea why. but i love most of her songs.

makes me reminisce of the past....maybe i'll rewatch 'miss no good' again...
but i can't watch it now 'cause bro's at home...
i can't load any shows on my computer....so i have to use my bro's computer...
and i can only use it when he's not at home...
and it's really amazing how he can sleep and stay at home as and when he wants to,and not go to school. temasek poly sure is a relaxed school...
well,i sure aren't following him.

co practices are coming soon...this holiday is really short...

2009-06-10T05:43:00.000-07:00

well..today i went to the temple to clean it with mum early in the morning...
mind you...i was still sleeping soundly when she pulled the bedsheets away from me and shouted for me to wake up...everyone must have had this kind of experience so you know how hateful it is to be woken up so early in the morning....but alas,i have no choice,because i promised mum to clean the temple with her...
so...still yawning away,i ate my breakfast...since bro has to attend schoool for presentation today,he dropped bro at temasek poly..and drove mum and me to the temple,which was miles away..and then dad went for appointment himself...

cleaning tt ginormous temple proved hard work...together with some ppl...the temple was finally cleaned...those ppl were all aged 50-60..and i was the only 1 that stood out from them....from this trip,i observed the different types of ppl...their behaviour and all tt....maybe i can talk about tt with dad when he has time...

anyway,i got myself a huge blister on the underside of my big toe...

i'm not close with you...why are you talking to me everytime i'm online...
i'm not angry or anything...but i just don't know how to say my feelings to you when you're saying all these to me.
those questions made me unable to answer you...and i really hope from the bottom of my heart that you'll stop asking those...
and i don't know how to say it to you....
there are certain things that you really shouldn't ask when in fact,we're not very close....
yes. we are still friends. but i think,if you're still doing this,i'll get angry.
i'm trying my best to keep it in.
and....there's lots of thing i didn't say to you for fear of hurting you...
in fact,we don't know each other at all...

but on a brighter note...i guess you can call the number below for counselling. :)
and maybe if you're lucky,you'll get my dad to counsel you,if nt,other ppl.
ps: there's no number here,'cause i forgot tt counsellor number...
i'll ask my dad again next time! :)

2009-06-08T18:45:00.000-07:00

lol...i saw this on rina's blog..so i thought of putting it here too....

2009-05-21T05:00:00.000-07:00

gosh...the results are finally out,and...believe it or not,i failed most of my subjects. or at least,i failed all my triple sciences.
and i did badly for the rest of my subjects too.i don't know what got into me.
i'm not going to blame anyone but myself.i'm not going to give any excuses too.
'because of the fever that i had just before the exam,i flunk my triple sciences'
'because of that fever,my time was wasted and i couldn't revise'
'and because of the fever that lasted for 3 days,i missed out most of the important notes that the teachers were giving'
all these excuses,i shall not name them out loud. 'cause i know it's my fault,entirely.
mr fong 又让我感动了。拿回考卷后，他来安慰我，让我知道自己不是物理考到最低的，虽然他可能在欺骗我，但我当时真的感动到了，眼眶泛泪。在我一生中，他是第一个能让我感动的老师，也很感激他，我会为他，为自己，争光的。
英文分数虽然高过rina，但仅60分罢了。华文成绩也退步了，以前试卷2都能考到至少60/70。现在是57/70。
或许是给自己太大压力吧，但是知道自己的分数不如rina的，有点失望。
数学和附加数学的成绩也是不理想。
英国语文的成绩才刚及格而已。
hence,i've decided to put in more effort.

recently,my dad lent me a book called ' the life you were born to live'（生命数字全书）.
it's all in the chinese language,but it is highly accurate in predicting your future careers,your personal character,and your strength and weaknesses..just by looking at your birth date.

hehe,and i got really into this book,and i got to know more about myself.
and yeah,most of what the book says,is true.
so...haha,i was just tbinking of asking my dad what other kinds of interesting books he have,or whether he can introduce me some good books...

...it may not always be good to conceal feelings deep inside...
maybe i should cry and let it all out...
...i'm sad now,and i want to cry,but what if there's no tears coming out no matter hw hard i try..

2009-05-17T05:44:00.000-07:00

最近又在迷偶像剧了，可是真的很好看耶！the drama is called 'boys over flowers'
it's a korean version of 'hanayori dango'...
even though the japanese version is nice,but this korean version is also nice!
i didn't bother to try the taiwanese version,'cause there wasn't any goood-looking artiste for the cast.
this korean version really is nice.
i recommend!!! the korean version of hanazawa rui is nt bad...
in fact the whole cast really rocks. really.i swear.
AND..AND>>AND!!! the soundtrack of this korean is nice...
the OST is nice!!!

and nw..im even more obsessed with singing and mussic...under the influence of this show...
and for the 1st time,i find that koreans are good-looking too.

2009-05-15T00:11:00.000-07:00

today ...chem paper...i think my jaw dropped when i received the paper...it's tough okay?!!! at least for me. okay,it's my fault for spending half of my time watching "boys before flowers" even when i know i hv an exam...
anyway,i think i spent 10 mins on every question ,until i was one of the few students busy scribbling away 5 mins before "stop writing". nxt mon for every1 is maths paper..
bt for me,i gt maths paper and literature paper... *sniffs* okay,come on,pity me pls...

ok...here's a wordy page from my organiser...:
Time flies! exams are almost ending.i'm free...like heck.i still hv co practices in the june hols...fine. -.-! actually the music helps me to relax... -.-!
holidays in SG means you do nt need to go to school,but instead you self-study at home and if you slack,you will hv a hard time catching up after hols...that's the real meaning of "hols" in SG.
i don't know how it is like in other countries,but im sick and tired of life in SG.it's so stressful. plus i hv a gut feeling tt im gonna fail some of my subjects...but then,think about it on the bright side,im going to save all of u by getting the last placing for this semester,cos in the end sm1 hv 2 get it,so if i get it,i will save every1 frm being sad...arent it nice?
ok,i know im degrading my self so i'll stop speaking of these disheartening things...
lately,i hv a sudden curiosity,i want to see snow suddenly...i want to see winter...
it's random right? bt i've nv gone out of SG before...
*sniffs* i really want to see what is snow...

2009-05-08T00:05:00.000-07:00

time flies. syf passed..now it's exam....
the only thing that nv change,according to my mum..(she says my face nv change)
"still so baby-face"..... thn i give her the -.-! face.
but of course i know my face nv change larh...like duh!
is i mature slower i think,and i seriously think tt i have growth in my physical growth...argh,nvm. but argh,duh! my mum and i look at each other everyday,of course she doesn't think that my face change... :\
anyway,i saw my picture on margaret's blog.... hehe.
from today onwards,i shall stop slouching. 'cause i think it's not ver nice for girls to sloouch.
plus i think i look loads better when im sitting/standing straight.
okay,i shall stop being so 'zilian'....
exams:
today was fine.
i studied for SS okay!....
thn mayank was walking around the classroom with his SS file,yeah he was trying to memorise. but there's no need to walk around when you want to memorise...
anyway,the funny part was,gregory saw mayank walking over,so he placed his chair in front of mayank so tt mayank cant walk there..and mayank walked back.
mayank walked the other route,but tt way is blocked by ryan...
it was so "lol!"....
anyway,i dun think anyone will understand this...bt those tt saw the incident,u hv 2 admit tt it's funny,no doubt tt gregory was being a bastard... (oops!)

btw: jiayou 3e4 for exams! and including all sec 3 and all the ppl taking exams at this period of time.
i shant say gd luck cos u cant only depend on luck during exams.

2009-04-24T00:38:00.000-07:00

got scolded by mdm ng suan ching as usual...every week,it will be the same...
i seriusly owe her money in my previous life...she's like my "loanshark"...
what's wrong with doing things slowly? ...at least,i don't see anything i did wrong...
according to the book" dealing with difficult people",a certain group of people likes to think thoroughly before making any decision,this group of people prefers to think slowly before doing anything. and yes! i'm one of these type of ppl!!!
i tend to do things much slower than others. and it's written in the book tt....for these type of ppl,it's best not to push them 2 hard,cos it may backfire...
in other words,if you push these ppl 2 hard,they tend to go even slower...
and I REALLY MUST AGREE!!!....

....all these are just illusion...
thanks mr fong,for trying so hard to help me in my physics...
i still cling on to my dream...a musician. or a psychologist it shall be...

...smth tt i nv told u...: i hope,you'll be able to realise tt ,some ppl are gd in certain things,bt maybe nt in other things...nt every1 is perfect...
most of us hv our own dreams,and i hv mine too...

2009-04-22T05:40:00.000-07:00

syf central judging competition...gold!!!....
of all the past batches,co had been getting silver...but our batch...we got gold!!!
hehe...tt goes to show our batch improves faster thn the previous batches,ain't it?
ok,i shall stop boasting...
actually i don't know how i look on stage...probsbly silly...
but when i was sitting in the audience seats,i can point out what they can improve on..
many schools need to prove on their taifeng..actually we also need larh..but ..hehe...
we got gold..partly because we got mr ng...hehe!
thanks lots!

2009-04-15T04:30:00.000-07:00

nth much to say...ppl often say tt it doesnt matter if u're nt pretty,what matters is the heart.
but i beg to differ. the outer appearance really is impt. very impt.
cos some guys only talk to girls who look better on the outside...
why do i always look ordinary when im standing beside you?
although u make me laugh,but it's only limited to a short period of time.
why am i always the 1 getting all the bad luck?
during napfa...being left alone....
getting scolded every wk during chem practical...
d'u think i wan 2 be scolded like tt? im sorry im careless! will tt do?

as usual,my existence doesnt matter anyway.
im sorry. it's a mistake for me to be born .
i shall sit in a corner and disappear frm this world...

2009-04-06T02:09:00.000-07:00

she saw them,and scolded me for wasting money...but i only wanted to support her...
i still went on with i think is right. that's me.
El oral today...went smoothly...i thought i'd do badly for my picture,but instead the irony of it is..i didn't.
instead,i screwed up my convo... geez.... ~it's my life~~!
monikca said wed must bring ez-link card. but i lost it.
...yeah, xxxxxx to be more specific...
argh, there was co. but i went home. 'cause i thought i had to go make 1 ez-link...
but in the end,my dad called and said there was no need... that was like 4+
so,i just stayed at home.
*note that i didn't use "slack at home"....
i did smth at home,ok...not skiving.

jiayou

2009-04-02T00:41:00.000-07:00

argh...i think i'm going mad over song of cicada and shimianmaifu...
i'm loving them more and more....especially the yangqin's solo part for song of cicada...
and i only managed to learn the 1st paragraph of that solo... =(
yangqin's sound is really marvellous!!! it's so calming...
argh.... even now i'm humming the song...
but liuqin is not bad too... it's just that no matter how loud i play...
i still can't hear myself clearly for the liuqin and erhu solo for song of cicada...
yes. it's our solo,and yet i can't hear myself....
it's definitely smth wrong with my liuqin or it's myself.
bt there was once when my dad said,it doesn't matter hw lousy the liuqin is,if the musician is pro,the music played will still be very touching...

i think my taifeng and volume needs some improvement...
im figuring out a way to let liuqin to be heard during our solo...
experimenting,to be exact.
and im also thinking of a graceful and nice taifeng for myself...
i saw 1 musician on youtube .her taifeng is great....
i shall learn from her.

dradadadadadadadadaaaaaadaaaadaadaaaaaadadadadadaaaadaaaaaaa
draaaadadadaaaaadaaaaaaadaaaaadaaadadadadadaaa
dradadadadadadadaaaaaaalalalalalalalalalala...

2009-03-27T06:53:00.000-07:00

today was a hectic day...achievement day rehearsal tired me out...
i've just found out that i tend to bite my lip when i'm nervous or when i'm in a daze...
okay,there's nothing special to say today...
except that J asked me for my group's project just now on msn...
actually,we'd known each other for 2 yrs already... ("known" as in we know each other's name)
but the irony over here is,we hardly speak to each other at all.
or to be more specific,we never once talk to each other in the 2 yrs...
the same applies to other guy,G,who sat beside me for the past 2 years... i never talk to him...
actually,on thursday,i wanted to start a conversation with him ,just to be friendly...
but i didn't. 'cause i didn't know what to say.
but i guess i shall change for the better and speak more to guys...
like this,i can know them better and they can understand me better...
fine. i've decided that i shall stop being so anti-social and try to talk in appropriate situations.
it will be hard,'cause they have known the quiet zhi ting for 2 yrs..maybe they can't adapt to it..
but i still,have to change.actually J doesn't sit very close to me...but for G...
all i can say is,we still don't know each other so well after all.
maybe i spent too much time observing people...oh well...
he certainly take it that zhi ting is a quiet and nerdy girl...
but actually there's another side of me too...
chatty and fashionable... :X (bt nt as fashionable as her*)

i hv many tyhpes,like skinnies,spaghetti tops...shorts...
but all i lack in tt area is,i don't have the figure to wear them...
i want a tube!!!.... nvm,i'll wait a few more mths to hv the figure to wear tubes.
what's love? i'm still not mature enough to know what's that,i guess.
immature,be it physically or psychologically.
feel tht i hv multi-personalities...i don't even knw wht kind of person i am now.....i'm so confused.
love...are those examples of love? taking phtotos of their kissing scenes on purpose,and letting ppl see the photos?
changing boyfriends like changing your clothes? isn't love about trust,committment,and endurance?
their changing of boyfriends is like divorcing and marrying again....
it's certainly not love,from my point of view. it's just flirting and playing around with each other's feelings.
*shurgs* it's just own opinion... but to THINK you're IN LOVE, that's also good enough...
the irony...changing BFs in less thn 2 yrs... for them..
but think about it...hw did ur mum and dad live with each other for so many yrs?
hw can they stand each other after so many yrs?
so there. true love? that's the question.

Slide 6

2009-03-24T05:24:00.000-07:00

today,tuesday ....was a bad day.
shan't elaborate. it shall be a secret forever.
for those who were there,thanks. you all helped me a lot.
so you don't need to blame yourself...
okay....from now on,i really want peace...
to him as well...i really want peace. but i wonder what he'll think...

2009-03-20T19:18:00.000-07:00

my computer dropped dead weeks ago...(i'm using kor's laptop now)
and it also means that, i can't watch starlit (xing xing de lei guang) anymore....
the plot and the cast is nice....those who're not into romance..don't bother watching...
'cause that show is about love. -.-!
anyway....yesterday morning,went park with mum and dad....
this is a 'once in a blue moon' thing k?! so many mths nv go out with the 2 folks alrd....
anyway....upon reaching home...my dad gt horned at....
actually it was another vehicle's fault....that driver wanted to changr lane,but keep on swerving out of nowhere....heck,does he want my dad to drive up the curb to make way for him? who's he?!
in the end,he horned at my dad.
thn the traffic light turned red..so dad braked the car.... that driver too,beside us.
then he turned to his right to stare at us...using his most killer stare..
but my dad didn't look at him...the 1st thing my dad did was too look at tt driver's company name,printed on the van.....
thn i also dunno why... said,' eh tt driver looking at us leh'
thn for no reason... my dad laughed. i laughed. so did mum. it was hella hilarious.
and the funniest part was,the more we laughed,the more tt driver stare at us...and the more we laughed!!! thn tt driver drove off after the traffic light turned green...

i was telling my dad,he was damn clever...
cos of he had turned to stare at tt driver who was staring at him...and if the 2 of them had stared at each other..it wont be so clever..

bt my dad simply turned around to laugh at tt driver.....which made tt driver even angrier...
he thinks we're laughing at him,bt we're nt....
my dad..." we're happy. while he's angry... his 'cancerous' cells wil grow.....and it's tiring to dislike some1.."

i think tt's really correct....... ha..i wanna be a pro counsellor in future....and musician of cos...
counsellor cos, can use the things tt i learn in daily life....
and tt's convenient cos i can always ask dad...
nw i understand why he's so outstanding...
the fabulous thing bout him is, he can always turn the tables at others...without hurting ppl...
i love dad.

...i doubt jynlem will update this blog anymore...
...
the more u scold me,the more i wun listen to ur discouraging words...
i will like the subject, bt nt u.
do u know tt,hw hurting those words were...
bt i wun listen to them..
i shall do it..and prove to you that,nt only am i gd in languages,i must also be gd in sciences.
for 1 thing,even though ur sciences is better thn mine for nw,bt my language is definitely better thn urs. and it will always be....
carry on if you still want to look down on me...teacher.

2009-03-16T03:59:00.000-07:00

friendship problem is solved! actually i think there wasn't even any problem at all...but ..forget it.
anyway,have to mention this ... thank you darren senpai for helping me psychologically...
i've never had such a good senpai,yeah? :').............he's always so good to everyone.
today,co day camp started. went well,a day that mr ng didn't flare up.
i've found out that i'm falling in love with 'song of cicada' yangqin part..
and the dizi solo in 'shimianmaifu'..... the whole day i kept on humming the yangqin solo for 'cicada' and the dizi solo part in 'shimian'.......i love them..

i would have continued humming on and on...but *she stopped me.
*she reckoned i still like **him.
she took it that i like the dizi solo part,because it's **him playing it.

oh man,i don't wish to repeat myself. no mutual feeling towards **him now. and not in future too.
ok,now that i've clarified this...( i know *she will see this)
don't crap about me and **him anymore. 'cause this will tarnish not only **his reputation,but mine too.

hmm.....it's such a nice day....k,let this "secret" remain as it is.
shall prepare myself for the challenges waiting for me tomorrow.
:')

2009-03-06T02:59:00.000-08:00

今天不怎順利，嘉雯叫我坐首席位，因爲她想教中一的，我不肯。
因爲我清楚得很，如果我坐那裏，我一定會害她們被挨駡。所以才不肯。
嘉雯偏要我坐那裏，她硬是要和中一的坐在一塊兒。
事實證明，黃老師果然罵我們，說明確一點，他是在罵我。
我知道肯定會有人在后面指指點點，由其是他。他那歧視人的眼光，讓我很丟臉。
我要証明自己無論在哪裏，沒有嘉雯都可以彈得很好，那麽簡單罷了。
可是我每次都會感到自卑。
為什麽我成績比嘉雯差？
為什麽我態度和她差那麽多？
為什麽被黃老師罵的，都是我？
自卑，絕望了。
如果我死了，大家是不會發現哪裏不對勁，是吧？
他們恐怕不會發現我死了。。。
因爲在這世界上，我的存在。。。
是那麽的渺小。或許我的存在是不必要的，對吧？

智婷

2009-03-05T03:34:00.000-08:00

music is still what i love.... singing though my voice may not sound nice..
had CIP today...went smoothly...
after that,went to NP with jynlem and rina foo.
jynlem left early so me and rina just chatted.
went to long john silvers to wait for her you-know-who.
then she ordered something to eat. the funny thing was,the thing did't come so quickly.
when it finally came,her you-know-who and his gang were already there.
she didn't want them to see her eating.... (i don't know why)
1) she could by all means ask her you-know-who to come in and help her finish that thing
2)what's wrong with eating smth in front of ur you-know-who...
3) i didn't want to be the 3rd party over there..

hence...i tried to leave,without success.

rina foo was grabbing at my uniform tightly...
it was all right,until the indian man sitting in front of us began to stare at us...
2 girls..- 1 girl pulling the other girl's uniform.
and i seriously hate ppl to stare at me. so i stared at tt indian man back...
and his baby tt he was hugging(COS TT BABY WAS ALSO STARING @ ME!!)
so i just stared at tt 2 aliens while they stared back....

and ...(fast forwarding)....

rina foo finally finished her food....
i could go back home!!!! free!!!
so we parted. me back home. her with you-know-who.

smth tt's random.... OUR SOCIAL LEADER ROCKS!!!!!
lalalalalala~... cos she made the CIP successful!
i'm looking out for some cute stuffs/doraemon stuffs for her!...WHEE!!!
shhh.....

*smth tt's even more random*
i love music. i love singing!..... :')

2009-02-24T05:24:00.000-08:00

i'm officially obsessed with music. music. and MUSIC!!! =') ...arts and music.
which includes pop dance,singing,and instruments. it was predicted that dec 2012 will be the end of the world...but,who knows? anyway,i realised my eyesight is failing...
i'm thinking whether to wear spectacles only when really needed...during recess or other times,maybe i can stop wearing spectacles and let my eyes rest.
poor them.they have been with me for 15 years(including the time when i'm in my mum's womb)..... i must say,of all my body parts,i love my eyes the most.
'cause i feel that my eyes are unique and big...just like a frog(that's what rina often syas)
but i still think that my eyes are very beautiful...(okay,i'm exaggerating. sorry)
eyes. you can tell a person's character just by looking at the eyes. 'cause no people have the same type of eyes....for one,i have eyes,that's not black. they're reddish-brown,if you look carefully..... and that's another reason why i like my eyes.

from rina's eyes: i can tell---she's kind,mature,sensible,and have a "sunny" character and is often happy,and she's simply gorgeous! halleluyah!
(okay,i'm being way hyper-tonic today)...

btw...i tried getting rid of my emo character by talking to guys...but i gave up.
it's gonna be weird if a girl talks to a guy for nothing.
but i tried to shout and scream as much as i can,for the past 2 mths and tried to be like a tom-boy for i could. just to get rid of my emo personality. but i gave up.
i think my original emo character is still the best. once and for all.
and now,i don't think i need to change myself,just for another person.
i shall be me.

but... me...
i'm emo--->tried to be an extrovert and acted like 1 for past 2 mths...
now--->how can i revert back to my old self when i'v gotten used to my new self...

changing myself is 1 thing.
reverting back to old self is yet,another thing.

i want to revert to my emo self,but yet i find it difficult now..
so im trapped in between...

now,this is my character.

tan zhi tng:
-likes to smile and laugh
-easily amused
-flirt a bit with the right ppl(this is what a survey said)
-often found smiling to herself like a maniac(often 'cause she's recalling smth funny)
-likes to mix around with right ppl
-in her opinion,right ppl means ppl like funny and humorous ppl..
e.g jynlem,rina,jialin,darren,xinyi,gregory,lynn.... (all the funny funny ppl)
(the last 2,i seldom talk with,bt they're funny nonetheless)
-tzt admires ALL ppl with musical background.
-if you know her more,she's warm hearted.
-likes to sing,instruments,interested in pop dance
-has attitude problems
-mood changes like the wind(can cry and the next sec,laugh)
-speaks whatever she thinks of,whether gd or bad,hurting or non-hurting
-mischievous,immature,irresponsible,
-arrogant,has a certain amt of pride,but yet,low self-esteem,timid
-emotional,sometimes when you find her on the wrong day,she might just scream @ you or just cry in your face.

all in all,i have up to a dozen attitude problems.and the weird thing is,i know them all.
and the biggest 1 is,I"M LAME!.... :')
ok..i have my angel side too...i'll treat ppl nice if you treat me nice.
wonder if i shld apologise to darren toh....
i ignored him when he sayed goodbye to me...but well,won't be seeing him tmr...
so...let it go then. but i shall treat him nicer since he's always the one treating me nice. i shall treat him nicer for once. :') *heart of compassion*

你们别歧视我。。。
对于你，没什么，只是遗憾。

2009-02-23T05:54:00.001-08:00

co went fine for liuqin...except for some minor mistakes... got rina,of course will be fine. :')
anyway,i was thinking about the next batch of committee...i can even guess who they are already..
SL for tanbo should be rina...'cause charis have another even more IMPT post....
i guess only... but SL should be rina.... hehe...
but if she be SL,she will have to go and conduct 2010 sec 1 orientation/and other stuffs...
then i won't have time to practise with her....and i'll be alone with juniors...
argh!!!.... but if she doesn't be the SL,who will it be....
it's not going to be me,'cause i'm not responsible enough...and i'm not mature enough too...
even now,as im thinking of the idea,irks me. yeah? it's not going to be me.
plus,i'm very very weird. and have a bit of attitude problem.
anyways.... i have to be independent when rina be the SL....yeah,i'm improving,aren't i?

for erhu,it was fun looking @ mr ng torturing the erhus... but i guess if it were me over there,i wouldn't like it too...but that's me. i'm an extreme SADIST.
dizi...well....not bad,but the solo was ruined...

the soloist went really green-red when mr ng scolded him,and the more i stared at him,the more that i find he's turning redder....but i know he won't cry just like i did(rina knows)
but that's worse isn't it..he's not crying...(crying relieves stress)
and if he's not crying,it's not fine.really. i'll be as concerned if it's others too..
'cause his face was so red...but the weird thing is,his face was nt as red as darren's...
anyways,back to tt soloist,final statement,i thought he was going to faint.

but if it was me,i would have alrd turned even redder than darren..
(that's really bad,considering that darren's face is alrd often redder than a..whats-it,tomato)
i'd have got a nervous breakdown and started chewing on my shoelaces. k,tt's the extreme.
anyway,i know guys won't cry so easily...

btw,mr tan's earring is nice,his necklace too.
but the thing that i can't stand about him is,he's always wearing his deodorant/perfume...
just a question: does he have body odour?

2009-02-21T18:12:00.001-08:00

i cried. no one knew why i cried. even i myself,didn't know why. but now,thinking back...
i think i knew why. i cried in front of him,not because he was forcing the answer out of me...
but it's because the more he asked and tried to force the answer out of me,the more i realised that i didn't know what he was asking from me.
i cried because he made me realise that i'm so weak in physics that i don't know what he want from me.
i cried because the more he flipped the piece of paper,he reminded me of my stupidity and ignorance.
i cried because everyone else could do well,but i didn't.
i cried because i knew that the problem lies on me,not him.
...but after crying,i understood certain things.
every year in AI,i will cry,due to certain reasons...
and everytime after i cry,i understand some things....
sec 2 i cried in front of mdm loh... due to no particular reasons too...
but it made me think really deeply....
personally,crying makes me think about the problem...
and now,i no longer dislike mdm loh... we even talked along the stairs weeks ago....

after seeing him due to my marks...didn't immediately go for co. didn't feel like it.
but in the end,i did. i'm not one who skips cca,though i often speak of it.
mr ng cheered me up. rina cheered me up.CO cheered me up. the music did.
it's ok if i didn't do well for my past 3 physics test....
i'll just work hard,and i have a new goal for my 2009.
this method,...:

i ,tan zhi ting, WILL AND SHALL GET 1 OF THE TOP IN PHYSICS.

done. *sigh of relief*
this method works 100%. i learnt it from a guy.
it worked for him,so i'm sure that it'll work for me too!

credits to RINA FOO for being by my side when i was crying....
even though she was half-smiling when she gave me tissue paper,but that made me laugh + cry.

credits to MR NG for cheering me up with his silly jokes.

to the teacher who made me understand certain things.

and lastly,not forgetting the guy who taught me that method indirectly.

ps: to jynlem- i just can't find the "link"button...
so i can't link jialin....next time when you come,you have to link...
and i wonder...why is it that im still blur when using blogger...

2009-02-18T05:29:00.000-08:00

okay..quite busy so quick post over here...
physics test-lenses..failed ...1/10....
thn gregory was like looking @ me like im a stupid idiot...
i seriously hate guys looking at me like tt...
he must be wondering hw stupid i can be... bt..nvm
let him think what he want....
btw...i just saw a friend's blog..abt her and her bf....

thoughts: this kind of relationship won't last long for sec schools...really.
it's hard to know.maybe you may regret and change ur mind about certain things when u grow up.
maybe things may change when u meet a punk in future...
all of us are just satisfying one another's needs... desperate for love...
some ppl are changing 1 bf after another..and i really dunno why...
is this fun? to THINK that you love tt guy..and in the end...u 2 break up..
and thn u find another guy again..... ppl are really stupid..i really dunno wht they are doing...
especially singaporean ppl...even though I AM 1...

2009-02-13T03:47:00.000-08:00

hmm...for my ambition of striving towards arts/music/literature...
i started describing some of the poeple i know to jynlem...and she expectedly told everyone....
anyway,i was talking to jynlem when a guy named james came by...
i took a closer look @ that guy...and some idea just popped up in my mind...
then i just blurted it out"he looks really like a cat"....
couldn't help it,it just popped into my mind...
and there's tee yong..he resembles uncannily like a cartoon character...
okay,i'm being mean but ...
and the way tee yong speaks,is so funny...the moment i look at him,i can laugh..
.just like how,when i look at darren,i can laugh without knowing why...
today,liuqin got scolded by mr ng....
and heck,i didn't eat my lunch and was like about to vomit...
try skipping a meal.
and i was really trying to force back the urge to vomit...and partly because my stomach doesnt have anything to vomit out too...
and so i was so tired and weak,when mr ng scolded us... it was really a bad timing....

and anyway,i'm satrting to feel the strain and stress..bt i'll still try to carry on....

'i looked @ william. and i think he also looked @ me,or maybe he was looking @ rina.
thn i ignored his glare'
this proves again,.tt i've stopped being psychic over him.
bt i think sooner or later, i'll ahve to speak to him...
'cause i think he'll be the chair soon....and it will just continue to be awkward between us...
and anyway,i also wanna know what happen tt make him stop talking to me...
cos he's jynlem's fren...it'll just be awkward...

bt alas,let things flow smoothly,certain things cant be forced...

2009-02-10T02:51:00.000-08:00

today was fine..PE...went quite fine,although i didn't really catch the frisbee,'cause i'm really not the type who are really ito sports and all...
tell me to catch a frisbee and i'll stand there watching the frisbee drop..
tell me to dig a volleyball and i'll do it,provided tt it falls on my head...
really,i'm so bad in all these...
anyway,my goal is to aim for music,i'm into music,singing,dance,bio and these sort..
nt the sort like...PE,physics...maths...and the lot.
so...sad to say,i failed my physics test.again.
2/10. and before i got the test back,i told nazhiifah(sitting beside me)..
"if i dun get 0/10,i shall cut some of my hair away"
she agreeed. and i gt test back. i gt 2/10!!!! guess mr fong gave tt for pity marks...
bt i gt 2!!! so,nazhiifah cut some of my ponytail away...

anyway,ate only oreo for lunch...thn when me and jynlem are going to sit on the bench outside co rm...there was a sudden downpour...
as i was walking in front of jynlem,i gt kinda .. "huh"??!!! O.O!!!
because i was thinking,why will it be raining now...with the bright sun and all..
and even still,the weird part is,it was raining on tt particular spot..
thn i kept on walking..water didnt land on me...
thn it took m a while to understand tt,actually there was someone pouring water from up..
johnathan,kenneth,niko...
haiz...thn the 2nd time i went to throw my preo packet,the water came down again..nt on me..
anyway,self-prac went well...although there's blister again...
and the best part is..i know im trying to boast but..
i've ,mastered the 2nd sentence of song of cicada on yangqin...
qiuyan is so great!!! she demo for me,bt most is i figure out myself 1..hehe!
pipa..actually it sounded great when i heard 'ju hua tai' on pipa...
bt guess,shichun wont hv the time 2 teach me...
though it sounded real nice!!!!

ps:i can always sit straight up with a pipa..cos it's so tall!!!...
and i can always slouch with a liuqin,cos it's so short..

2009-02-06T02:27:00.000-08:00

today,school was fine. had chemistry test...i know i made some mistakes somewhere but well...
and last period..had physics test... i was sitting there staring @ the paper...wondering what to do...
staring @ all the human beasts around me busy scribbling away...
and i thought to myself,why is it that thye know what they should do,while i'm just blur...
anyway,i don't think i scored anything for that paper,'cause i left blanks for most of it...
and the fact that,the physics test had only 3 questions,didn't help..
i didn't know how to do all 3...and bless my soul...i know i'm in physics SRP now...
there's no use trying to deceive myself.
the problem when you come to one of the top classes,when you're not exactly clever...
is,you don't have the guarantee you'll catch up with everyone at the start..
well, it's my life... i'll just catch up to those inhuman beasts soon! yeah?
because zhi ting has become cheerful. i will work hard to stay in 3e4!
triple science class! gogogo!
IT"S MY LIFE!!!
i won't wail or whine when i see my physics test with a zero on it,or with a "see me" on it...
i won't be like other girls who break down and cry after seeing the marks..
in fact,i'm 1 of the few girls who get zero in their entire lifetime.
'cause few girls ever scored exactly zero for their tests...
and actually,there's nothing to cry about.
eg: when i gt my chemistry test back,it was an exact zero,no more and no less...
i didn't cry.like i said,there's no reason to cry.
i shall just work really really,extra hard to catch up with 3e4.

i've changed.in the past,i break down and cry whenever any teachers scold me...
but now,i don't cry whenever teachers scold me.
i don't cry when i fail my tests...
i've decided to study hard.
and for co,i'm practising my taifeng too...
and i even did some taifeng today...
doing taifeng in front of everyone isn't an easy task..
and in front of the person i liked.
but anyway,i did it. note that i put certain words in past tense.
and for jynlem,please do not exaggerate this.
i know that you like to exaggerate specific things,but not this,okay?
'cause i've really stop treating him as my crush.
when i look him directly in the eyes now,i don't feel my heart racing.
oh,and...today mr ng didn't scold most of us..he was in a good mood...
so maybe tanbo's taifeng impressed him? okay,fine...

ps: lately,i've fallen in love with korean songs.
-jynlem and my friendship is getting better,we're returning to how we were like during sec 1 before knowing 'him'.

2009-02-03T03:26:00.000-08:00

i update uhs, later she scold liao... did biology practical today, having a nice time with the osmosis potatoes. my 15% salt solution potato when extra turgid- looks like is going to burst. i made a watery mess with my ruler and my potatoes- cutting them and putting them into the pot for my dinner soup. lol- super lame uh.

i didnt know how to do the previous two worksheets of light- i only know how to do the latest one.
eek. tmr got e-math test and history test; tests are real bad. you only know how terrible it was after you have gotten back your tests results. gonna work extremely hard for this year, i will not drop physics but music instead. i want to take grd 8 practical in 2 years time, if possible, next year.
i want to teach other people piano :D want to learn piano thn must find me hor. (advertising, lol.) charge one hour for $30 for grd 1-3, $45 for grd 4-6. kidding uh.

2009-02-03T03:03:00.000-08:00

fine day. i finally did 1 science practical without anyone's help...bio practical was easy today...
mr fong's so cartoon...he looks like a professor from some kind of cartoon...
anyway,had self-prac today...was wonderful...for some reason,everyone played to their fullest...
and everyone tried their best...
and the best part is..RINA SAID I IMPROVED IN MY VOLUME!!!
yeah,i also feel tt for some reason,i played my loudest...
every1 played as loud as possible...even shichun was talking about it...
anyway,it ended well,with qianhui cheering"tanbo is great"!
i also thikn tt tanbo,guanyue and erhu..tanbo hv the strongest sec 2 team of pipa and liuqin ever...
cos after jiale they all go next yr,erhu wont hv any "pro juniors"..guanyue also..
bt tanbo hv a team of pipa and liuqin..(sec 2 this yr) yeah! :D
tanbo shall be the strongest in co for the nxt few yrs in future!

灌籃的你。。。
i've nv liked any guy before,excluding my past immature infatuations(i've matured a bit)

ps:jynlem,the CIP thing tt we were talking about...was so..LOL

2009-02-02T05:12:00.000-08:00

i had time to update once more,it's weird tt i can find time for this,bt nt for practising piano...
wonder if i'll pass my practical piano exams... :O
okay...i'll like to emphasise on the fact tt jynlem still hasn't updated this blog...
you're a jerk...you're so hardworking tt you make me feel disgusted...you're always scoring 1 of the tops in class.. -.-! but nvm...she's a workaholic,i'll stop here,or else she'll scream in my ears again...
anyway...gt 2 "see me" on physics assignment..and 1 "see me" on A-maths...
woot! it's only feb and i gt 3 "see me" for my work...great.
this class is so hardworking,and clever,and know-it-all...
but i'll try to ctch up with they all...
okay,fine day,co..bad... jynlem didn't come(o-level music)...
actually...a lot of ppl didnt go combine...QH came,bt she was busy with the sec 1s...
thn..darren...don't know..probably skip combine again...
all the SL are like so busy...and mr ng scolded us...tanbo didnt get scolded!....
k,i think mr ng nearly cried..he nearly burst into tears...
i mean,i think he felt sad,disappointed,dejected,angry,discouraged,irritated,helpless...
k,i'll stop all my nonsense...

anyway,i pity him.being a conductor isnt an easy thing...
and i also think it's ridiculous for the zhonghu still nt knowing their fingerings after like about so long...
no wonder mr ng blew his top...mr tan came too(teaching sec 1) his perfume makes me dizzy
btw,i don't think i hv the chance topractise yangqin as often now..
cos i hv 2 let qiuyan practise...and there's the sec 1 thingy....
bt i'll try to touch tt instrument for every self-practice i go..
wish me luck for the chem. test tmr! and for everything tmr!
wish anyone who comes by this blog... a happy 2009! and be successful in 2009!
btw..i wonder if anyone comes by here...

:believe tt i can do it...practicals,combines,tests...and you too!

2009-01-29T03:41:00.000-08:00

jynlem still hasn't updated this blog...nvm
anyway,today's fine...i love thursdays,because i can sleep longer,and because there's no practical...actually,i don't mind practicals..but i just can't stand physics practical,'cause i just can't understand those things...
and anyway,about co...
me and rina were walking around school half the time...
tmingled around with sonia and gang....and 1 of the gang members hugged me,right around my waist!!! let's not elaborate on the reason...
btw,i'm getting better and better on yangqin,'song of cicada'....bt,i can only practise about 15mins everyday,'cause qiuyan also have to practise on her yangqin...
yangqin...the marvel of it is: although it seems difficult...it's actually not.
and there's qiuyan who cared to teach me. actually i had been setting eyes on pipa...
but i can't seem to find anyone who will be willing to teach me...
there's shichun,but i'm not very close with her..and anyway,she doesn't have the time to teach me 'cause she have to teach the other 5...
daruan,zhongruan..too big... (but HIGHLY RECOMMENDED if u wanna sleep during practices)
because these 2 are the most comfrotable to lie on...
dizi,no breath. liuqin..string breaks every mth... (string rusts easily)
left erhu and yangqin... actually pipa also can larh..if mr tan's willing to teach me...
erhu.... hmm....there's no 1 to teach me,bt i hv a feeling i can master some skills of erhu in future too..
if not,i can always og to huijie/jynlem/anyone i'm on talking terms...
...and beg them to teach me.

:)

2009-01-28T03:21:00.000-08:00

i shan't be speaking of rina and her ideal guy here,from now on...'cause she "blackmailed" me not...
anyway,self-practice was fine.we practised our taifeng...and although i'm still not skilled in that,i shall improve on it....
physics practical was torturous...i couldn't understand what mr fong was saying...
and i don't understand why we're doing those experiments...
so,guess i was the only one sitting there looking blur.
really,i prefer biology or chemistry practical,'cause i can often get the gist of what the teacher want...but for the case concerning physics... it's the opposite.
i promise i WILL improve on my physics and studies... i don't want to drop to other classes...
'cause i've begun to like my class,and close friends like jynlem and rina...
and friends like charis,gauri,ashwini,nazhiifah,and jean. of course,after tt,there's a"good classmates" section,but i shan't elaborate on tt...
btw,rina's soft toy monkey is so cute!....maybe if i have time in future,i should go shopping and buy some soft toy keychains to put them on my bag...
and anyway,i think after being jynlem's friend,i've come to be more talkative and have become a gossiper...and more loud-mouthed...
and i'm reminded of lingyue, am i as loud-mouthed as lingyue?
or is the quiet anti-social girl who didn't talk to a single person except for gauri for the past 2 yrs,the real me?
is the real me...talkative and a gossiper and enthusiastic? (current zhi ting)
or is the real me...quiet and anti-social? (past zhi ting)
there're two faces of me...
1)sometimes i'm emotional,quiet,anti-social
2)sometimes,i'm talkative,and may act like a tomboy,and may talk very loudly...

today,i can be like the 1st,quiet and all,tmr,i can be very talkative...
yeah. i realised im having 2 types of personalities...

just like there's a devil and an angel inside my body...

1 minute i can be very good,the next minute,i may be showing my attitude to ppl around me...

but i guess i'm just influenced by jynlem...
deep down,i still feel there's the quiet zhi ting in me...
i'm just not mature yet...

2009-01-22T20:42:00.000-08:00

today,the school celebrated CNY...CO performed... because i'm playing liqin,so have to sit in front...
i could actually feel the spotlights on us,and the heat and glaze from the spotlights...
mind you,the lights were so bright....
as we were waiting for our turn to perform,we heard mr yong singing...and some other teachers...
actually mr yong is already quite good at singing,so please don't humilate him please...
because, guys who have music background,ALWAYS STAND OUT MORE THAN THOSE guys who only know how to act gangsters...yeah?
eg.. guys who know how to play instruments/sing...are always more special than those guys who don't hv music background and only know how to act...
like nigel from 2e5'08..and alvin foo from 2e5'08..and their gang...
there's nothing wrong with them,but i just hate it when they just come up to us and try to "pick us up"...thinking they're that handsome and all,but actually they're not.
it's alright for other girls,'cause they may like it when guys quarrel with them or touch their hair or whats-its...
'cause those SG guys express their "love" by pulling girls' hair or quarrel with them...
simply hate it 'cause they have no etiquette at all...
bt,nvm,those girls like it so much when guys do tt to them...
but i don't agree. cos i think it's lame. and immature.
saying all these cos nigel did some of these things in front of us girls(including me)
and if nigel does tt again,i shall just ignore him and walk away...cos it's rly lame.
and i just wonder why rina likes guys who walk purposely with some weird style...like as if they want to go to the toilet or smth... and even samuel is doing tt...
they think i't's cool...bt from my view,it's just so lame...
guys who behave themselves are the most attractive,yeah?
btw,saw henry today,he came back...ah...his shirt is nice,i wonder if i'll recommend kor those kind of shirts...bt well,it looks nice on henry,bt maybe nt on kor...cos kor is fatter thn henry...
anyway...i'll end here.
i still think i conduct CE lessons better thn mdm yap cheng....ain't it?

2009-01-19T06:18:00.000-08:00

today,had monday blues....anyway,i was pulled to the toilet by rina foo ...up to 3 or 4 times...
i don't get why she thinks her fringe is ugly...she simply looks nice and adorable in that hairstyle...
anyway,co was fine...mr tan wore skinnies..and he didn't wear his ear-ring...
btw..out of boredom,i asked qy for some things,and she agreed!
i've mastered 'gong xi','jin she kuang wu' and the 1st part of 'song of cicada' on yangqin...
hehe,k,i'm bragging again..but i'm jsut so happy tt i'm making progress so fast...
jiayou!...i've alrd said im going to step towards the path of music...
im starting to think yangqin's sound is very nice... pipa is good for inventing own taifeng....
yangqin also... and liuqin...it's ok,but i still don't feel like learning it after i graduate from AI...
cos liuqin string break easily...and it's so small and short,and im alrd 160cm...
and...i need to slouch to play tt thing... tt makes me dislike it even more...
anyway,i shall learn yangqin or pipa maybe....
im nt touching daruan or zhongruan...cos those instruments are just too big...and,they just don't look right to me...plus i think those playing daruan and zhongruan shld be tomboys....(excluding qh)...
and..im also nt touching percussion or erhu or guanyue..cos i dun hv any interest in them...
and partly cos i hv nt enuf breath to play dizi..and partly cos i dun like drums...
pipa or yangqin shall be it...
actually in the past,i preferred pipa to yangqin,bt nw yangqin has a 70% chance over pipa...
cos i hv no shifu for pipa..bt i hv shifu for yangqin!!!
and i got so delighted over the fact that i've mastered those chinese new yr pieces on yangqin...
that i began to like yangqin..
really!..and i must say tt's quite fast..cos i spent almost 2 yrs of my lifetime figuring out my luiqin...

2009-01-17T01:14:00.000-08:00

heyhey. finally back due to some sch work. mr tee will be in our class teaching a-math for the second semester of the year. yay, mr tee's back. how i wished they could just change the e-math cher- i thk that her voice too soft. finally did almost all my hw but.... next mon got a-math test, biology test and physics test. eek, why so many test de..... im damn super worried abt my physics, almost fail thn must go srp, kind of horrid thing in the way it is wasting time only on one particular chapter.

tmr got the chong pang performance, scared though as my sai ma very.... confused. the rest i dun mind uh, thinks everyone as i got loads of presents. (most number of presents ever in my 15 years). next post thn i hao lian a bit uh.

2009-01-16T21:17:00.000-08:00

1) rina
2)jia lin
3)xue ting
4)jynlem
5)darren
6)qiu yan
7)jean seah
8)zi wei
9)charis
10)nicole

2) who is 6 having relationship with? (qiu yan)
none

3)is 9 a male/female? (charis)
female

4)if 7 & 10 together,gd thing? (jean seah + nicole)
nt sure,bt gd idea though

5)what's 2 studying? (jia lin)
the many facts on frogs! Lol!

6) u last chat with 3? xue ting
during lessons

7) what kind of music 8 like? zi wei
pop/hip hop

8)does 1 hv any sibling? rina
kor

9)u woo 3? xue ting
no... -.- anyway,she hv suitor le bah..hehe

10)hw bout 7? jean seah
er...she's a;rd my.... it's between me,jean,and fadhil.. :X

11)is 4 single? jynlem
imma nt sure

12)surname of 5? darren
TOH

13)hobbies of 10? nicole
sing

14)5 and 9 get along? jynlem and charis
jynlem gets along well with almost every1...

15)2 studying? jialin
AISS 3e4!!!

16)smth abt 1? rina
ELMO!!! :X

17)feelings for 8? zi wei
np...bt as a friend

18)9 live? charis
yishun? sembawang? woodlands?

19)color 4 like? jynlem
purple?

20) 1 and 5 fren? rina and darren
uh...junior and senior/...

21) 1 hv pet? rina
elmo

22) 7 sexy? jean seah
cute

23)10 doing nw? nicole
hmm...

oh ya,i've alrd know almost every1's name from 2e5'08!!!.....LOL

lishan,shalice,charis,nicole.weikiat,alvin foo,tengkiat,esmond,rina,manping,alvin ang,livinyah
nigel,samuel,jeremy quek,john andrew

16 of tyhem,bt well..a lot liao seh

2009-01-14T04:13:00.000-08:00

rina's simply gorgeous... anyway,we ran to toilet today together...lol! totally fun...
then it was CE....rina and me began talking about those topics...LOL....
and then... (fast forward)...school ended.....
i didn't go for bio sup class,shan't elaborate...
ok..nowadays,im getting more and more eager to get my ear-holes....
cos those ear-rings are so nice!.... k,maybe i shld ask rina abt further info...
no matter wht,i still don't regret taking up lit. elective... mdm kaur's quite nice...
physics...totally don't understand what mr fong said...
k,till here.....bye
-zhi ting

2009-01-09T01:51:00.000-08:00

today is finally the last day of the 3-day TID...
1st day- i went
2nd day-i didn't go...
3rd day- (today) i went...
actually i didn't felt like going...so i went to shopping mall with jynlem to buy our ringfiles...
bt then,since there was time after our shopping,i decided to go to TID...
jynlem went home and i went back to school....
just as i expected,my existence was nt really important...nobody really cared...
from the start of jan,i've been trying to be really nice to those idiots...
bt i just don't know why... they just treat me like im transparent.
anyway,TID today was consider nt bad,cos darren made me laugh again. a damn comedian...
just looking at his face cracks me up...
anyway,william and alex came to play liuqin..and blah blah...
alex talked to me,but msotly rina...thn i kinda shunned him...
im nt good with communicating with guys,and i nv know hw rina does it...
anyway, my future spouse shld be someone who can forgive my everything
including my bad habits and my weird temper... im like this.
anyway,i played pipa,and managed to play 'long de chuan ren' without scoresheet...
bt i guess i played it wrongly...
anyway,today,i sort of tink tt my attitude towards alex was a bit cold...
sorry,to all the ppl tt i offended,and including... william

&: zhi ting

-i have a lot of bad habits,which are pretty obvious-
-i don't believe tt rina doesn't hv bad habits-
bt i must admit tt my bad habits're really bad-
-i'll try even even even even more harder to be nice to ppl-
-and i'll stop avoiding guys-

2009-01-07T03:43:00.000-08:00

k jynlem...i don't scream. i talk. and speaking of screaming,you're louder than me... -,-
TID today...totally forced to go....and im the only odd 1 out there,with no friends...
bt anyway,i managed to spend my time there...
i spent half of my time tuning my liuqin for the first half session before TID started...
thn huijie asked me about lit matters...
thn,TID started...i didn't go out to "sell my liuqin"...partly cos i didnt feel like it...
and anyway,rina was doing well over there...with xinyi helping her...
and then i just lingered at the side,and darren was trying to help,bt nt really helping also...LOL
the more i look at his face,the more i feel like laughing...cos he just look so comical...
like a cartoon character,tt came out of the tv...lol
anyway,his actions were so funny..like a retard.... (oops,sorry) *bai chi*
and thn after tt,many things made me laugh...
1) when 1 unknown teacher came in and was talking to kangyong + hazim...
wanyu walked to the whiteboard and drew a drawing of ky and hazim...
bt it was a comical 1.... lol....she drew the both til it was so funny tt i couldnt help bt laugh....
2) nigel was blowing an instrument and walking around the co rm disturbing ppl....
thn william was playing yangqin...
nigel simply walked over and blew the instrument in william's face...
and the most most fuuny part of all is...no matter hw hard nigel blew...
william just kept on playing on the yangqin,like as if nth happened...
and the next funny part is: william just kept on playing on the yangqin,concentrating so hard...
tt nigel blew even louder on the oboe sort of thing...and he blew and blew...
and he stood in front of william and the yangqin for about 1 min....and yet william just ignored...
and thn finally ,nigel just gave up and went to other places to blow his oboe thingy...

and then...in the middle of TID,when we were about to perform sai ma...henry came in...
he's alrd graduated...and he's still come back...lol?
bt i think my face gt hot for no reason,thn after we performed,henry went back out again...
*sigh*..anyway,i think ...

&:zhi ting

-don't ever look back at me-
-don't look me in the eyes- im easily touched
-i thought we won't meet so often...bt yet i see u everyday...why....
-just be happy and smile everyday... jiayou! >:P
walk past me! don't look back at me!..i know you won't,right?

2009-01-07T01:57:00.001-08:00

zhiting must be screaming at me for not updating this bloody thing. this is simply because i was too busy with my stuffs everyday from tdy. zomg, a-math cher is mrs boh (i tht she is related to Charis. =.="). e-math cher turns out to be our form teacher- miss chong. biology cher is ms geraldine chew. physics cher is mr fong which surprisingly happens to be 3e5's form teacher.

went phy lab to do physics practical. i was sitting opposite of shan, beside puey ei and diagonally opposite of xue ting. kind of weird when mr fong came out with his own formula for calculating positive and negative zero errors. oops! i forget to take a copy of the microscrew gauge thing worksht for alexandra, which she told me to. the elementary maths notes are super duper thick- imagine you are supposed to brng everyday, that would be heavying heavy (no such word uh.)

i might just update once a week or so. yesterday's bio lesson is very fun. coz alex is not here, sb have to take a turn twice to do the quiz. it was actually me but the cher called xu cheng coz he is sleeping. the people are shouting answers and giving hints, hoping they will get it correct. i was laughing non stop when it is my turn coz they kept shouting answers!. i know the ans uh, then they shout... weird though.

that's all for tdy uh, counting down from 1 week and 6 hours! (you know what that mean, if you dunno, look properly in this blog. )

2009-01-06T04:46:00.000-08:00

jynlem's still not here,guess she doesn't care about this blog anymore...typical 3e4-ian
today is fine...except tt i discover tt im sitting between gregory and dickson(VH) at hall(assembly)
and im sitting almost beside nigel(3e3) at basketball court....'cause im behind jialin...
and he's damn irritating...i've just found out smth...those 2e5 08 guys have 1 similarity...
they're damn irritating...except for ** barh... cos if i talk crap about **,## will kill me...
anyway,i realised geraldine chew is quite nice...
cos we had our 2nd bio lesson tdy,and after 1 period,she conducted a game...
and my group won! (duh,with shubhankar,it's hard nt 2 win)
and geraldine chew gave us prizes...
a mini-packet prawn and curry flavoured chips...
though it's a small gift,im still touched...
cos she took to the trouble of making our lessons interesting...
bt u can say im easily bribed by such things....
anyway,i think ms chong shld learn frm ms chew...
haiz..physics--mr fong....HAIZ....
why does the teachers always call my name...
and i dunno why he addressed me like tt,bt i guess it's ok...
cos i was counting my mosquito bites on my hand...
there were 7 or 8..LOL....and then they were itchy,so i was scratching all 7 or 8 of them...
when mr fong suddenly said"... ...can't be measured,miss zhi ting?"

and then i gt a huge shock.. -,- cos i didnt know what he was talking bout,4 the past 5 or 10 min..
bt luckily he turned his attention 2 the other half of 3e4....

msn matters: cia sigit finally came online,and he said smth bout him overseas...
such a free guy...and tt's the 1st time he sign in and automatically talk 2 me...
and while i was doing tt, zulfiqah (2e1 08) came online..and also automatically said hi to me...
its nt tt i find it weird,bt zul nv ever talk 2 me during the past 2 yrs in e1,and i mean it...
i dunno his anything,his birthday,his hobby.... and rmb,im a racist towards guys...
and zul's a malay...plus we nv talk during past 2 yrs... i dun understand him too..
so,i also dunno why sometimes since a period of time ago,he started talking to me on msn....lol
and..i dun rmb telling him im in 3e4,yet he knows....
and now thinking back,i used 2 be like tt too...bt nw,i dun disturb ppl on msn anymore...
i know the feeling....

&: zhi ting

-so near,but yet so far.-
-don't ever turn back,never.-
~bt everytime u walk past,i couldn't help bt glance a few more times~
*this means breaking my vow tt i made for myself*
-know you treat me like u treat banu-
&i will try hard to hide my feelings for u in my heart&
because i just want u to be happy,i miss ur laughter

2009-01-05T05:01:00.000-08:00

2nd day of school.. MY BIO TEACHER IS GERALDINE CHEW!!!......(k i didnt hv 2 react like tt)
bt..bt..bt... i'm quite scared of her. for i-don't-know-what-reason...
the other teachers are ok...most of them are nt fierce i think....
except for geraldine chew... lower sec pmlc.....
and i feel weird when i see her laugh...
anyway,i just remembered tt physics cher is mr fong cheng shek...another weird tempered 1...
and chem,i dunno who's teaching...bt,shld be nt gd ler larh...
so..my triple science chers are nt gd...
and mr leee siew weng still confront me...last yr
cos i wanted to take double science...bt mr lee persuade me to go for triple science....
zzzzzzzzzzz! MR LEE!!!!!!! nvm.i shall try my best....

and,i also dunno my A-maths cher.
anyway,co today...saw chen laoshi....mr tan
same old face,wearing his earring on the right ear...LOL...
then during sectionals,pon a little bit with rina.
she PULLED ME RIGHT AROUND THE WRIST....or u can say"nearly dragged me"....
to meet the guy tt she likee...and her grp of frens...
and yes,i saw tt guy tt she likes...and ya...ok larh....nt bad...
bt a bit uglier than chiew hao,bt at least better than alvin foo. and,tt guy gt strong chaarcter?
guess de larh...anyway...is rina drag me there de horh.... my wrist was all red...
and after we went back to comp lab,we were given 2 more scoresheets...
1 of them,i've played..the other,nv played,bt have heard of.
k...shall end my post here...
p.s: doesn jynlem even update this blog at all?
but i guess she's too busy...nvm..

cheers,
&: zhi ting

2009-01-02T04:29:00.000-08:00

ok..2nd jan..let me elaborate on behalf of jynlem...
zhi ting's 1st day of school 2009
jynlem and i decided to meet at foyer in the morning..so i went...
and i saw rina first,and so i talked to her for a bit...and after tt...i caught sight of jynlem...
she came early...so we went up to hall for assembly..the usual singing of anthem..lecture...
and after tt,day began... new class..3e4...
and i really must admit tt i miss the guys in 2e1...
'cause 3e4 is too goody-two-shoes...no one dares reply ms chong... no one bothers her at all...
it's like..sitting in a class with those good kids and all...back in nursery...
and some administrative work was done..
we played some ice-breaking games...we were supposed to sit by our birthdates...
but i ,the unluckiest girl,just had to sit at the wrong place on the 1st day
hopefully,ms chong didn't scold me
recess came... me and jynlem walked around....
and she wanted me to go to the toilet twice in a row with her....
and so,walked past 3e5 twice in a row...and then jynlem talked to william...
then from somewhere,i heard junming calling my name...but then couldn't see him....
and then the wall which jynlem was leaning on (when she was talking to william) had a spider...
and then recess over...group work again...with nazhiifah,shan and jean...
quite fun..but they kept on saying me wanting to go taiwan for further studies...
and so,the were laughing so hysterically the whole time.... and so,we kept on laughing...
until the principal,and vice principal came...and mr tan came...
and next,mr frederick yong came for personal bearing check...
and i got verbal warning..so did jean and shan....
and i was caught for my hair...my ankle socks...and my uniform....
hair: fringe too messy...(my side parting was nt very successfully,but nvm...)

ankle socks: actually,there was nothing wrong with my socks,they were visible over the rim of my shoes....but alas,i don't know why ms chong said tt my socks were too low...

and for my uniform,my blouse was caught...
you may wonder why...'cause...
1) zhi ting is a good good girl. she nv ever tuck out in SCHOOL..(thought she often tuck out outside school premises)
2) i always tuck in very very neatly...
3) mr yong didn't say there was anything wrong with me....
4)but smth was wrong with my shirt...
5) and he said tt it was just too big for me,and he recommended me for a smaller shirt...
6) and in my very own opinion,i think he's right...i've been wearing tt shirt for 2 yrs...
7) and i also find my skirt a bit too big... my waist is too small..and my hips too...
8) SIMPLY TO PUT IT,I ALWAYS LOOK WEIRD IN THE UNIFORM...
9) 'CAUSE IT ALWAYS LOOK BAGGY ON ME.....which i still don't get it...
10)and i still don't get it after 2 yrs in AI.... after 2 yrs,my body still hasn't grown...
11) mum has told me off again after i bought a yellow tube top...
12) cos she thinks the tube top is too small...
13) and i think she's blaming me again...
14) - cos my behind is too flat- -and my in fronts are too flat also-
15) and i would like 2 remind u all tt, she's the 1 who gave birth 2 me...it's hereditary...

after talking for so long...if anyone is still reading attentively up till here...
i 'd like to give tt person a prize....a friendship hug.
whoever you are,i'd like to thank you. for your everything.

and btw,back to school events...
having a fine time sitting beside nazhiifah...jynlem's sitting beside asyari...
and the trouble is tt...due to the fact tt i was too quiet these 2 yrs...
these group of ppl don't really seem to want to talk to me...
and even if i want to talk...they will stare weirdly at me....
they just simply can't forget tt good old quiet zhi ting
do they really want me to say" hi,zhi ting has died,im her twin,nice to meet you"...?
nvm..i shall work hard...by the end of june...im really gonna work damn hard to let them accept me...be it guys or girls... be it 3e4 or any other class...
but first,i'll start from 3e4 mates.....
i'll start to socialize,rmb..im nt zhi ting..im her twin now....i've changed....
apart from working on "international socializing",i must work hard on my studies...
zhi ting's new updated list of goals....

1) aim for As in my studies...to get in a good college...just do my best! and never regret!
2) not forgetting my liuqin
3) and also my piano...grd 6..(impt) * try nt 2 fail...cos this means wasting $$ and time. ..
4)try to improve my singing...self-practice. (when older,will try to get a shifu to aid me)
5)take up dancing classes....hip-hop/pop... (must learn before 18 yrs old)
6)...learn pipa...(must learn before 18 yrs old)

strive towards the path of music.

thanks.
cheers,
&: zhi ting

2009-01-02T01:16:00.001-08:00

i would say that this yr's first day of sch begins with a terrible day, which is on friday. assembled in hall with zhi and sat down behind puey ei. thn after that, the sch introduced some new teachers and talk for about 50 mins. i found out that my classrm is just i room opposite the ava room, between e3 and e5. at first, i sat beside zhi. thn later, after arrangement, i was sitting beside that fellow who talks non-stop, Ashari (or whatever the person's name is ). i cant really stand talkative classmates. luckily ms chong says that this is only temporary, if not, i would have secretly changed my seat.

i would have said that this is the worst cohort of sec 3 students.

1st of jan

2008-12-31T21:50:00.000-08:00

ok..it was just a few days ago tt i found out frm the net...
tt baron chen,who's starring as dylan in "fated to love you"
has a dad,who is a very big gang leader in (i think,taiwan)
and i was like...LOL..no wonder baron chen look damn hella like a gangster,his appearance.
although he's cool and handsome and all,bt i think his temper is nt good.. lol
and i watched a taiwan entertainment show with baron chen as the guest..
and he was a wearing a shirt with the slogan tt read" u're fucking special "
LOL...and can u believe he wore tt to the place as a guest? -.-!

tmr will be the day starts... mixed feelings... i don't want school to start,but i want to see rina...
and nt only rina of course,nt forgetting jynlem..

cheers,
&: zhi ting

2008-12-29T23:20:00.000-08:00

saw some quizzes on wanyun's blog..decided to do them. :)

1)how old will you turn in 2009?
- fifteen ,after halloween's

2) would you rather love 1 person or hv many relationships?
-love only 1 guy

3) would you date someone 8 yrs older than you?
-not sure...

4) when was the last time you laughed?
-not long ago..

5)what were you doing @ 4am this morning?
-snoozing....

6)what's your relationship with the person you last texted?
- teacher/student relationship

7)what did you do today?
continue watching 'fated to love you'...cried tonnes over it..

8)who do you really want to see now?
my dad

9)will your next kiss be a mistake?
- i've never kissed anyone before...so,my 1st kiss? not sure?

10)who's your last missed call?
dad's

11)what's something you really want now?
fly to taiwan immediately.

12)what was your 1st thought this morning?
'what a gloomy day'

13)would you go back in time if you had the chance?
sure!...

14) what's something you need to go shopping for?
many many...accesssories..bags..tees..

15) do you want kids?
not sure too? am still not sensible enough to think of these...

16) are you in love with anyone?
no..never been in love...but ever been in 1 major unrequited infatuation.

17)how's your heart lately?
-aching. 'fated to love you' is so touching...

18) when was the last time you slept on the floor?
the time when i rolled down the floor when i was sleeping,and was too lazy to get back up the bed

19)is your phone close to you?
hmm...yes.

20)what is bothering you now?
'why's this quiz so long...'

21)what does your last received sms say?
some matter concerning my piano schedule

22)where are you now?
SG, yishun.

23)are you listening to music?
yeah

24)do you like country music?
er..not really..

25)do you wet your toothbrush before applying toothpaste?
yeah..

26)how is your hairstyle right now?
it was actually spiky after the haircut..but now,it has become quite lumpy and untidy..

27)do you like your 1st name?
yeah

28)the last thing you drank?
hot chocolate

29)what you sing obnoxiously in car?
er..i can sing elsewhere,but never in the car...'cause my dad's there...

30)what did you do 15 min ago?
watching 'fated to love you'..

31)do you think you're a good person?
i hv a devil and an angel in my body...constantly fighting with each other...

32)the first contact in your phone?
amanda

33)the sweetest person in your life?
May, or you can call her by her thailand name... srivitpakdikul voraluk!... :')

34)the closest female to you now?
jynlem,but not sure abt tt in future..'cause she's so guai tt i can't stand it anymore.... -,-

35) the person you're chatting now?
none

36)the language you're able to spean?
many many....lol..
for english and chinese..i can speak average...
tamil....--not quite...
malay--i learnt hw 2 say 'i love u' from fadhil,bt i forgot again... -.-
hongkong language... don't know,but i know they love to drag their words when saying them...
HOKKIEN/ the main taiwan language...... (see above)
...*warning* i avoid talking 2 grandma cos im nt gd at this language...
bt nowadays,im becoming better at it!!!!!.... muahahahaha!!!!!
and dad says it's better 2 know hw 2 speak tt,if wanna go taiwan....rmb? im goin there 2 yrs later

37) the last person whom you screwed?
the last person whom you screwed?! i think it was a driver.....

38)1 word about ur life nw?
pathetic...i regret myself for being stupid 2 hv done this LONG quiz...

39)where do you wish to work?
in a peaceful environment

40)what are really good at?
admiring myself everyday in the mirror

41)would you date someone younger than you?
possibility of tt is small,cos i tend 2 feel safer with guys older thn me

42)who're u to urself?
a' one and only' me

43)do you forgive ppl easily?
sort of

44)which girl's precious to you now?
can't think of 1

45)ur dressing style?
tee with jumper/tee with shorts/tee with mini-skirt and maybe with a hoodie
* bt the problem is,i seldom shop,so i dun hv miniskirt or jumper or most of those..

46)how're u different frm other girls?
i can get very irritating if i want...

47)the bad point of urself?
i tend to irritate ppl tt i like...BT..BT..BT ... i've alrd changed this bad habit k?
cos everyday everynight,im maturing... the zhi ting last mth may nt be the same now..

48)the last contact in ur phone?
myself. zhi ting..cos i added myself too. how lame is tt...

49)ur favorite song?
mostly chinese songs...and..sung by taiwanese..cos i DUN LIKE SG SINGERS..

50)the 1 hated contact in ur phone?
if i hate any1,i'd hv deleted him/her...i won't keep the number there..

51)learn 1 language in 10 days?
possible...bt it will sound horrible..

52) 1 gorgeous girl u came across?
a stranger....

53) who's ur biggest enemy?
myself

54)which gang do you support?
my own gang...bt it's yet to be formed.

55)what do u think of gangsters?
cool

56)proper age to join gang?
upper secondary or older...is possible.

57)do you have a blogspot?
yeah

58)do you like ppl who smoke?
nt really..cos i hate the smell of smoke..and so,i will dislike the person too...

59) what d'ya think of modelling?
must have good figure,and best if u hv good looks too. (applies to female/male)

60) given a chance,would u want 2 be a model?
no idea,but i would rather be a singer or smth.

61) whose approval do u seek 1st?
family

62) what do you wish to be in future?
the future is yet to be known.... no idea...

cheers,
&: zhi ting

Groups - 1st Baron Chen fan Group

2008-12-29T03:45:00.000-08:00

Groups - 1st Baron Chen fan Group

LOL..was watching 'fated to love you' when i found HIM!!!!
baron chen!!!!
baron chen , starring as dylan.

wow..i'm so angry with myself tt i didnt watch this show earlier!

2008-12-28T23:45:00.000-08:00

today,i woke up to my mum's shouting...yeah,i thought it was the alarm.
but then i saw tt my alarm clock was at the far end of the room.
reckon i kicked it too far aside..but nvm.
went shopping with my mum..i realised i'm starting to have my own opinions..
i guess it's part of the growing-up process...
actually,at tt particular shopping mall,the clothes there didn't really suit me...
'cause there were mostly only elderly/adult wear...
but nonetheless i saw some necklaces,and wanted to buy some..
but then,i remembered that i don't have the right clothes to match those necklaces...
and after walking for very long,i saw some shorts with belt included...
i wanted to buy them..but then i found out that thye were too big for me....
and then i also found something quite shocking to me... MY WAIST IS VERY SMALL...
it was like "what-the!" i really wanted to but tt shorts...
and now i can't buy it 'cause my waist is too small!....
and the most sickening part is, i only found tt out when im about to be 15...
and i saw some long sleeved tee..i wanted to buy,too.
but they were too big...and then my mum lamented tt they look like those garbage bag on me.
ok ,it ain't my fault tt im physically maturing so slowly...
and mum has no right to say anything,'cause it was ShE who gave birth to me...
and then my mum was mumbling about ppl with flat butts can't wear shorts...
'cause it won't look nice...... and i know she was talking about me too...
oh well...
and,we walked past the place where they sell undergarments...and the "top-garments" for girls.
and then my mum wanted to buy some for me..
and then! mum started to chat with the salesgirl..
and then before i nkow it,mum began telling the salesgirl how small my bust measurement is...
and it ain't like,i'm nt there..i was standing beside her!.. -.-!
oh well,mum's bust measurement is noly a little bigger than mine...
guess it's hereditary...
all's well ends well..we went back soon after...

cheers,
&: zhi ting

2008-12-28T05:18:00.000-08:00

jynlem has not updated this blog for so long...and i don't think she will,too.
she's always busy with her hw and studies.
but i think sometimes it's good to relax for a while too... it doesn't hurt,you know.

these few days,i managed to complete my math assignment & chinese assignment.
now,my only holiday assignment left is...---> the math project..

i really have no idea how to start,but i believe i can do it. :)
i shall put in my best! ganbateh!

school's starting! i can see my friends again...
and most of all,i can meet rina again..it has been 1 mth since we last seen each other...
she's agreed to go on shopping sprees with me when we're free in future!
imagine my delight. :>
and i know i often disturb her on msn...sorry! >:|

cheers,
&: zhi ting

2008-12-25T19:14:00.000-08:00

after signing in to msn...i noticed many friends have returned to SG...(another sign tt hols're endin)
a new yr is starting... :')
and i looked at those people's personal msg...
most of the girls wrote their personal msg with"...love you...don't leave me..."
in other words,those girls' personal msg were for their so-called bf...
and i must say...nowadays,girls are getting quite bold... -.-
having male friends is ok,but having bf at this age....
i'm getting quite angry,'cause they're treating all these as a joke...
they've turned LOVE into LUST.
maybe they were together for a yr or whatsoever,but they will surely break up after tt.
im sure of tt,'cause i know ppl won't be together after their o'levels...
cos they need 2 go for diff JC...or poly.... so it's impossible to still be together after sec 4...

and if anyone dare tell me that they really LOVE anyone at this age and that they know what's love between a girl and a boy,i will say that, the person is mistaken.

'cause you still don't know what true love is like.
the committment between a pair include trusting each other...
and forgiving each other...
love... it's entire later part of your life...
for all you know,you might regret your decision after some time...
and maybe you might regret choosing the wrong partner...
and at this age,how would you know tt you've picked the right partner?
so those girls who hv bf at this age...there's also some from 2e1....
but i think they still don't understand what's true love...
'cause i know for sure they won't be with their tom or peter until thye grow old...
they're just playing a fool...
at this age,it's better to concentrate on studies,instead of playing with each other's feelings...
it isn't easy for 2 person to stay with each other for yrs...NT just a few MTHS...
together for 10+ yrs..20+ yrs...until thye die... just look @ ur mum and dad..
think... what held them together? it cocnsists of a lot of things...

and i've decided that i won't get entangled in a relationship until i'm 18 or older.
cos at this age,we're 2 young 2 know what's love.

i've wrote nearly an essay just because i saw some girls pining for their "love" and begging their "love" to come back to them....
but i guess i myself don't hv the power to say all these...
after all,i ever gt myself entangled in a 1-sided relationship 1 yr ago....
but alas, thank god that it was only a major infatuation...
nothing much...

cheers,
&: zhi ting

2008-12-25T07:49:00.000-08:00

hey. Merry Christmas to everyone in the world :D
went orchard today. mum want buy bag, i saw one that i liked, but i thk it is not necessary. last christmas and birthday wish- I WANT AN EEYORE!! I LOVE EEYORE :D

i saw ivy, margaret and i thk their another friend on the mrt platform. looks like marg saw me- coz she look in the direction where i am. thn about at the bridge at orchard near shaw plaza there saw my teacher- (hey will, you know it...) mr lai with his big family taking photographs with his family. the funny thing that is..... he recongnised me. paiseh uhs. i dun recognise him but his voice :D

in the end, i did not bought anything. i thk christmas today had became happy carriers' day for those people who carried plastic bags filled with my mum's stuffs. but for her, it is yet to be a super-duper christmas.

- 婉琳:D

2008-12-24T03:07:00.000-08:00

latelly,i found 1 website very interesting...it has a lot of surveys and whats-its....
and i did almost all of the surveys in 1 night!..
and heck,i forgot to start on my project...
and yeah, i got too engrossed that i forgot school's starting...
and ...i just wanna read twilight,but have no idea where to get it..
and please don't tell me to get it from any bookstore....
survey/polls/whats-its /if you have nothing to do and want to kill time.

cheers,
&: zhi ting